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Damn, maybe I need to plan a holiday to the US.

@Olo said in Just chillin:

I will not rest until giant ballsacks get as much love as giant feet.

FWIW I never got into feet. Not as a tiny; in fact, I’m quite neutral on it to the point it might be the one thing I’d be chill with were I in a giantess mood (rare.)

Ballsacks, though.

@Olo That makes a lot of sense; and I think it’s probably very common for it to attach to our sense of self like that. I’m glad you seem to have found a way to banish that shame. At least, I assume you have because every comment I’ve seen from you has been level-headed and emotionally intelligent.

@Olo said in I found a crumb of M/f in a manga:

When I was feeling ashamed of my shrunken man fantasies, one way I would beat myself up was to tell myself that it was an infantilizing fantasy driven by my reluctance to take responsibility for my life.

This resonates. Did you ever feel like the shame was a result of your fantasy being at odds with your own sense of integrity? The way you’ve worded it, it sounds like there was a belief there that responsibility was synonymous with control.

I ask because I’m one of those people who started out using it as a coping mechanism, a deep desire to hide from the world because the world sucked- the only difference being I never found that part of it shameful. For me, avoiding responsibilities was entirely fine, but the shame was rooted in the prospect of giving myself to someone wholesale. Considering that trust being violated was the entire reason I needed such a cope to begin with, it felt gross and confusing to me why I would find comfort in the same situation.

@blehb said in I found a crumb of M/f in a manga:

having something much larger control your entire existence is the perfect manifestation of that fear.

Amen amen amen
It really is perfect. Wouldn’t have it any other way.

@blehb said in I found a crumb of M/f in a manga:

That is a fantastic meme. I do wonder about the connection between fear and sexuality in the brain.

There is absolutely something to this. There’s a podcast out there called “Whatever you’re into”, I don’t know if they’re still running it. But they interview people with really wild fetishes and there’s a common thread that becomes apparent- most of them found it scary as a child. Puffers were frightened by balloons. Someone with a breath fetish was terrified of being sucked into a vacuum as a child. They mentioned people with clown fetishes were terrified of Pennywise. There was even a macrophile they interviewed who imagined herself as a tiny mouse to hide from everything that frightened her.

I have a very close friend who has a very intense fantasy about Sadako (the Ring) crawling out of the television and raping him while he’s petrified in fear and disgust. (I learned this wasn’t as unique as it sounds, there’s a ton of R34.) There’s also an SCP that is inserted into the same exact fetish.

@Nyx That’s about where I’m at, unfortunately I’m still working on the smiling part; I’m more of a growly grumbly gremlin.

@Olo In any case yes, I keep seeing this bs rhetoric lately trying to define feminism in terms of how we express our sexual desires. I keep seeing comments about how giant men are somehow gross with no regard for the fact that maybe they’re kink-shaming. Men asking OTHER MEN what women like about being dommed and if it’s a moral failure to not “let them be their inner giantess” () rather than just, you know, talking to some women.

It’s especially harder in male-dominated spaces to have your voice heard, when you’d love to indulge your kinks but the moment you share anything catering to a M/f fanbase it gets shamed and buried because they don’t like it. Meanwhile, a picture of a giant female ass and drooling vagina hovering over a city takes over the whole algorithm. As someone who already struggles with shame, this stings and often pushes me deeper in the closet.

So yes, this discussion here did influence my mood a bit, and I had to go yell somewhere.

@Olo said in Kink shamed by Google AI:

So is firebolt_ lurking on here?

Just expose me eh

Damn giants always sniffing me out of my hiding spots smh

@foreverlurk said in Kink shamed by Google AI:

@skysayl nope, it doesn’t seem to mind about GTS and SM at all, and doesn’t lecture me. Ah, what a time to be alive.

Go figure lol

I’m so tired of being told what I should find empowering and what I should find degrading!

Google AI that’s what I think of you!

I surely hope the same canned response results from a search for a giant woman or shrunken man. But I won’t get my hopes up.

@SmolChlo Please do! A podcast that doesn’t shame M/f enjoyers would be so welcome.

@blehb said in Disaster and confrontation:

Typically “malegaze” stories will focus on the attributes of the tiny woman, and “femgaze” of the giant man.

I’m so guilty of this it isn’t even funny.

@foreverlurk said in Disaster and confrontation:

I’m curious about that part - do you mean “triggering” in a therapeutically good way? Like during CBT’s exposure part?

Exactly as in exposure therapy.

The giant in this context isn’t the one who inflicted the initial trauma, but they do represent it by virtue of being, well, giant.

@blehb said in Disaster and confrontation:

The majority of this site is dedicated to the kink aspect of size content, so some readers might approach your story from that POV. Not trying to scare you away from sharing, but it’s good to be mindful of that.

Oh, that makes perfect sense. It’s another one of the reasons I hesitate, actually. There are definitely kinks involved every time I write, but sometimes they’re hidden behind a wall of buildup. I guess I enjoy it as a payoff, rather than instant gratification. I think I fall almost purely in femgaze for that reason alone lol

I actually have something on my docs along these lines, but it’s been very hard to write because it started as a therapeutic piece for myself. Sort of a hurt and comfort dynamic except I take the ugly, raw parts and have turned them up to mirror my own experiences with trauma therapy. I’m talking full on breaks in the presence of a professional, verbal abuse, avoidance, SI, the nine yards. Except the therapist is a giant, and therefore the source for a lot of triggering moments.

I can’t imagine anyone wants to read that, so it’s a private doc. I thought that maybe if I were to trim out a lot of the intenseness and zero in on a more optimistic narrative it could be palatable. But if I did that I felt the context would be neutered and it just wouldn’t… work.

Seriously though, what is the appetite for trauma-genre? The discourse here is making me wonder if it would be worth putting it out there someday.