One thing I can honestly say I could never walk away from this kink/fetish for as much mental strain and pain it has given me over the years and still dose the community around it has help shape me into the person I am today. I’m not saying I’m a better or a worse person for it but I feel I’m better for you all I’ve met some of the most amazing,talented strong willed and if I’m honest confrontational people in my life people that have called me on my bullshit even when I didn’t think it was. Likewise some of my darkest days I’ve been helped though by those same people. I could more easily stop my own heart than step away from this kink/fetish (side note I have spent years in hospitals and now can lower my heart beat low enough to make a heart monitor think I’ve flat lined great trick to try on new doctors or fresh nurses). On a completely different tangent I ask my fallow posters when your hugged by a loved one/friend what do you feel besides the physical contact because that’s all I ever feel yet I think others get something else out of it am I alone in this or can others relate.
