Mental health call out check up
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Watching a twitch stream last night of a Aussie stuffed kangaroo plushy great guy any way the topic of mental health and ADHD came up with a lot of people going on about their own issues. Like how psychopaths have no emotion and how that’s false and all that and about empathy how psychopaths/sociopaths can sing the song of empathy but can’t read the cords/notes. That really hit home for me because yes I can sing that song and many others but honestly they are just covers like I can fake a warm caring hug but I don’t feel the emotional support from the hug just the physical contact. I can act sad when someone dies but unless I’m truely invested in them then it’s just another statistic like 10000 people in natural disaster on the other side of the world oh well my pet goldfish dies it’s the end of the world. But it’s like my book listen habits I listen to a lot of audio books not like one after the other more like I have like 20 on the go at once and if it’s been awhile it will take me a chapter or two to lock back in on the story but once I’m there it’s like chatting with a old beloved friend that I’ve know for years. Also not real people facing heart break or tragedy in books hits me harder than real people my tastes in music go from Taylor swift to Norwegian death metal and everything in between. I guess what I’m trying to say is it seems I’ve got two setting ether I barely dip my toe in something or I’m at the bottom rolling around under two ton of pressure and just as likely I’ll be back to toe dipping 5 minutes after I’ve rolled around on the bottom. Sorry for the long rant and poor grammar I tend to type how I think and yes way to many squirrel moments which is strange because we don’t have them in Australia maybe kangaroo mouse would be a better alternative. Just like to reach out to anyone that is feeling uncomfortable or a drift in a sea of endless sorrow or despair yes the sea is endless but there are a fucken lot of us out here and occasionally we have to bounce off one and another so just because we haven’t collided yet only means the currents are directing you to someone else. As I sit here re reading what I’ve just waxed politically about I wonder if it’s even worth posting will anyone care do I care about it do people want to read it is it worth reading is this just a way of talking out my own issues fucked if I know I’m sure the smarter and wiser people here will understand or at least point out the flaws at the very least I hope this gives people something to think about or at the very least to go DNRTFL.
