@foreverlurk I’m so sorry that you’re struggling with this. I do commend you and encourage you to continue therapy, I think others have had some great input on that already and I know I’ve benefited from it tremendously over the years. It does sound like bringing up the kink in a session might be beneficial, even if you don’t go into great detail on the specifics and more on how it impacts your life. I have a feeling (and it sounds like you do as well) that it might not be the fantasy itself that’s the core issue, so I do hope that once you’re in a better headspace the sizey yearning might not be quite so painful. We’re all rooting for ya
Posts made by littlest-lily
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RE: Depression and Size Kink
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RE: Sweet treat (M/f, borrower, gentle, fluff, smut)
@foreverlurk This might not have been what you meant, but there’s actually no official app for AO3. I’m pretty new to the site but I personally didnt find it confusing - to me it seems like a site that’s fairly similar to something like DeviantArt but it’s all stories. The only thing is that you have to request access when you make an account, so there’s a little bit of a waiting period.
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RE: Sweet treat (M/f, borrower, gentle, fluff, smut)
@miss-lillipants Sooooo beautiful. Really really excellent. I think I’ve melted into a little puddle 🥰 I have to ask the same thing I asked Nyx - do you have AO3 or a centralized place where you post all your work?? I feel like I may have asked you this before, apologies if so, my mind’s a wee bit distracted now hehe
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RE: Morts, Grandes et Petites
@Olo I hesitate to even participate in the discussion since this feels like a sub-genre thats I’m not interested in. But I’m hoping to add my voice in some sort of support/reassurance to those who are into it, maybe?
I fall into the category of preferring death to be a threat at most. Yes, the skewed power dynamics in a sizey situation is part of the appeal for me - the fear and the domination aspect can be very exciting. But I do get very uncomfortable once things become very violent or if there’s death (I don’t necessarily mind it from a narrative perspective, just not from an erotic one). And in the past this has been a point of contention for me in the size community. Part of that I think was because I was exposed to it way too young. It was difficult during early internet to find sizey material without running into very sexual and very violent content, despite me not looking for it (from what I’ve gathered this still happens all the time even today, that’s just how the Internet is I suppose). And then a bit later on, during my RP days, I had a couple of experiences where my RP partner suddenly included death and violence without checking that I was okay with it first, and I was left very disturbed. (I’ve had several bad RP experiences though with folks who don’t listen to boundaries, I’m very aware that it’s a case of the few ruining it for the many).
I do think I’ve come a long way since then though, and it’s in large part thanks to this sort of discourse. I have found it very helpful to interact with those who are into the violent content, to continually remind me that it’s all a fantasy, and that the vast VAST majority are perfectly kind and progressive and would never actually want the horrors in fiction to become a reality. I liked the section in the blog post about having empathy for the victim in the situation, and that for many that’s the very crux of it. That makes total sense and I find it very enlightening actually. Sometimes things feel like they should be obvious, but they’re somehow not, possibly simply from not giving the subject enough thought.
It’s also helpful for me to encounter the vast variety of what people are into. Despite any internal discomfort with certain content, I’ve always tried to not kink shame. Because yes, I do like wholesome fluff in my fantasies, but I also like some of the darker elements, the domination, the dubcon and noncon, getting treated at least somewhat roughly, and even scenarios that could be considered rape. And then I have my personal boundaries. And everyone has different boundaries. Some folks might not mind some amount of injury to heighten the excitement, but draw a line at death. Some are into soft vore, others want the blood and guts. Seeing the complex and varied spectrum is helpful in and of itself to reduce judgment.
Anyway! I know I’m not alone, as someone who is not into the violence, in thinking that there’s nothing wrong with you if you ARE into the violence. For whatever that’s worth!
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RE: Training Exercise (M/f, Gentle, Giant, Shameless Smut)
@Nyx Well I would love a link to your AO3 at least! And I actually understand where you’re coming from - I do both sfw and nsfw content and sometimes I’m not really sure where all of my stuff really fits. Different sites have been good for different things - but I have used DeviantArt as a catch all, at least for now.
(also, @Giganto82 - thank you! Honored to be part of the creator community 🥹)
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RE: Training Exercise (M/f, Gentle, Giant, Shameless Smut)
@Nyx Finally got around to reading this and loved it! I really like the way you write dialogue Do you have a centralized place where you put all of your writing perchance?
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RE: Taking Care of Your Shrunken Princess ASMR
@skysayl What software do you use? I’m used to stuff like final cut pro or imovie, but I’ve focused on the video editing and have never separated tracks in that way before.
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RE: Taking Care of Your Shrunken Princess ASMR
@foreverlurk Ooo do you know what kinds of tools/programs are needed to make that kind of effect? I have experience with video editing, so I’ve done some amount of audio editing as a result, but nothing quite like that.
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RE: Taking Care of Your Shrunken Princess ASMR
@Olo Haha well then, here you go! https://youtu.be/uwClJ-JRhU0?si=RQQAfvuSqx4cRk8y
This actually reminds me, he did one in the biggo role too, and it’s one of my absolute favorites! I’ve actually been meaning to put together a list of giant ASMR videos and post them here but just haven’t gotten around to it. I’ll share this one now though: https://youtu.be/egP_zxZgKEw?si=NQkrqEWBJNp0VtN5
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RE: Taking Care of Your Shrunken Princess ASMR
@skysayl Yeah exactly! I was imagining it might still be more RP-ish if it was told in first and second person, but otherwise this is sorta what I was imagining.
But that was just me thinking it might be easier to record for me personally. If I write a script for ya I could do whatever! The one I’ve written before was very much an “acting” style one, not an audiobook style one. I would just give you that script, but I ended up giving it to another friend to record so that it didn’t go to waste… (who is a guy, meaning I switched out the genders, I’m guessing folks here wouldn’t be interested in SM ASMR so I haven’t shared it haha)
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RE: Taking Care of Your Shrunken Princess ASMR
@Olo Yeah, I’ve seen the word “audio stories” which is perhaps more accurate here. Although I guess that could maybe also refer to something told in the 3rd person, like an actual audiobook, as opposed to more of a roleplaying type thing.
That’s something I’ve thought of before too… I actually tried to record the “ASMR” script I mentioned before and hated the process so much that I gave up on it - combination of hating to hear my own words in my own voice and feeling so awkward about “acting”. But I’ve also wondered if telling a story, perhaps still from first person but without the same level of “acting” to the microphone, might be an alternative.
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RE: Taking Care of Your Shrunken Princess ASMR
@skysayl Oooooh wait… I’ve actually written an ASMR script before… I don’t want to commit quite yet because I have so much going on right now but…!!
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RE: What are your favorite types of relationships to see in size content?
@SmolChlo I would love to read a good enemy to lovers story!! I feel like oftentimes in traditional media with enemy to lovers I’m left wondering “so what do they even like about each other…?” and find that very distracting. But if they can make me believe in the relationship then it’s a dynamic I find very compelling.