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I recently had been diagnosed with body dysmorphia disorder after having to got to the mental hospital(I am still not sure if it’s an official diagnosis, it said on my discharge forms I have BDD). I mainly have body dysmorphia with my height, I honestly feel a bit embarrassed about having BD with my height because usually people have it with their weight and face.

Before I got diagnosed I had been using g/t unconsciously to cope. I used both M/f works from other people and I would draw myself as a tiny person.

I used to get very jealous of men because I felt they had more size media to go to if they ever felt too large. I also felt as if the culture around F/m being the dominant fantasy in the community also made me feel jealous and upset because it feels as if the culture was forcing me to be something I feel very very uncomfortable with. But ever since I found out I had BD and that I had been using size media as a cope for it, the jealousy had died down a bit because I am now more aware of the origins of my emotions.

I really really hate feeling large. But I am also body dysmorphic about my height, I always feel as if I am too tall or large. So drawing myself as a less than one inch person makes me feel the way I want to feel.

Unfortunately people shorter than me(5’4”, no hate to anyone who is shorter than me) trigger my body dysmorphia and make me feel self conscious. I always feel this anxiety in the back of my head, people shorter than me might comment on how much taller I am than them.
I feel like the drawings I made of me being tiny, even if they are low effort, help me feel more comfortable in public and around people shorter than me.
M/f media other people made also achieve this but I feel as if the drawings of me being tiny helped the most because they shrink me. And also media where there are a race of people much larger than humans achieved the same effect of drawings of me tiny.
It’s also why I personally feel very uncomfortable at size media with people much smaller than humans. I still think that media has a right to exist, even though I personally don’t like it. People worked very hard to animate The Secret World of Arrietty, it must have thousands of drawings.

M/f G/t and overall G/t used to be a fetish for me. And then it became a romantic interest to me(maybe still a fetish but with no sexual undertones). And now it’s so much more. To me, it’s an aesthetic, an interest, a romantic interest, and a mental illness cope.

Which is why I personally hate it when people think of the size community, they just think of “the giantess fetish”.

Does anyone else feel the same way about G/t and size? Does anybody else use size media as a mental illness cope?

@i-am-insane said in Asexual Thoughts:

Ah, another for the ‘Ace but weirdly and deeply into a really kinky fetish you probably can’t ever explain to anyone normal camp’. Welcome!

I am very proud to be a member of the camp. We are a very humble community.

@Calypsa I feel the exact same way as you do. I am asexual and never liked size media with sexual undertones a lot even though I can tolerate them. I have always been into non sexual size media.

But I honestly don’t just like gentle, I like it when the giant teases the tiny. I also like a yandere giants and giants that are dominant or evil in a fun cartoony way(like the evil dr from Phineas and Ferb) that is not sexual too.

@OptimisticSizes I very glad I am not kink shaming because I am sex positive even though I am ace.

@Olo that shading is beautiful

@i-am-insane said in Does anyone feel this way about F/m:

@TakoAlice8

More seriously, I get the overly empathetic bit- whenever I try to come with ideas I like from stories I like, a lot of general story concepts I like have the big be… well. Kind of a dick? All of the bullying and threatening and killing and stuff.

And I like that, except I don’t want to do that to someone. Or, honestly, even watch that done to someone… even though I do? I only really want it in the fictional concept, but the second I try to picture me writing something like that there’s too much of me in the giant to do it.

Inside me there’s two giants fighting over how to deal with fetish material and the conflict is leaving my ability to make a story in shambles.

I like M/f scenarios where the larger person makes fun of or teases the smaller person, not to bully but to provoke the tiny person. It just has that annoying older sibling dynamic. The larger person is being mean but they aren’t being abusive mean. It’s a lighter version of the bullying.

I also like it when the larger person tires to scare the smaller person by showing his teeth at her. It’s a lighter version of the killing to me.

@Olo Oh now that I see it, I wasn’t upset with people in F/m being “Objectified”. I was upset with how hegemonic F/m is again. I suppose because I am ace I feel uncomfortable with “Objectification” in fetish media and so I have a hard time understanding how it could not make someone uncomfortable. I also tend to be overly empathetic towards fictional people so that was also probably why I got uncomfortable.

I am still trying to figure out what kind of size media I like. It turns out I am my brain is not as tolerant size media with sexual undertones as I thought.

Alright keep being kinky.

@miss-lillipants Where did you find such gold?

@Olo I am personally not attracted to beards and facial hair in general

@The-Big-G This is a very good take. I appreciate it a lot.

@Olo This person is so talented

I am sorry if I come across as shaming F/m. F/m is not inherently bad. These are just my feelings about the genre.

I don’t often look at F/m because it makes me feel uncomfortable so this may just be my feelings. I feel this feeling, like I am being objectified when I look at a lot of F/m. I am not sure if a lot of F/m does objectify women, maybe I just don’t like it because the woman is big and I don’t like feeling big.

It feels as if a lot of women in F/m are dehumanized. I feel this because I see that a lot of giantesses commit mass genocide without remorse. Don’t get me wrong I like evil characters. But the evil to me feel as if it has no deph.

I know this all fantasy but I can’t help but to feel these icky feelings. Size art feels extremely real to me because it feeling real to me makes up for it being impossible for me to be shrunk.

There’s the trope in F/m that makes me feel extremely uncomfortable. It’s the trope where all men shrink. It makes me feel uncomfortable not just because my demographic is not being shrunk and I want to feel like I am being shrunk. But also because I feel like a lot of men would use that trope to objectify women, I feel as if it also could objectify men because it assumes all men want to be shrunk.

I know it’s wrong to kink shame people and that this trope being kept just as fantasy is not wrong. I honestly find the idea of a society where all the women are tiny and all the men are gigantic to be arousing because it works for me being bi. So I understand bi men who like the opposite trope. Unfotunatly I can’t help but to feel icky due to the lack of gender equality this trope has. I have made up a fictional species of human where sexual dimorphism makes the men gigantic and the women and intersex are normal sized to avoid objectifying men, they are all cis because I want it to just be M/f.

I honestly wrote the “anomoly that reduced out of hand” out of spite and jealousy for F/m fans. I was a bit apprehensive about writing it because I thought it might give a man the same icky feelings I am trying to explain in this post. I wrote it anyways because if men wrote this trope with F/m, then I can write it with M/f. I apologize for the poor characterization, I am bad at writing and I don’t mean to objectify men.

Maybe my feelings about F/m are invalid and a lot of F/m doesn’t objectify women. I wrote this in the hopes of resolving my feelings. Please tell me why you think my thoughts are invalid if you think so.

Edit: I read the replies and now I think objectification can not happen in fetish media due to it’s overly fictional nature. I think I need to work on not treating fictional people like they are not fictional. I think I also got upset because I found out I am not as tolerant sexual size media as I thought I was. And again I am upset with the F/m hegemony.

@i-am-insane I get that a lot of people have a foot fetish which is why it’s in a lot of size pictures. I just wish I could see more pictures of giant men that don’t involve feet. I am not kink shaming anyone who likes feet, I am personally not into it.

@Olo He just wants to play with her

I had to also post this on here.

What a gentlemen he was so honest to her. I would date him

I hope you guys can read it.