Does your size fetish make you depressed?
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For me, sometimes the size fetish/macrophilia community does make me sad and depressed, especially when you have a fetish like mine in which not a lot of people like. My favorite part of the fetish is mega/giga giant couples (giant and giantess together). Especially nude giant couples. I keep hoping someone will make videos of a giant couple destroying a city, but because the majority of the fetish is giantess and giant males are not welcomed as much - vise versa with male giant sites and apparently not many people like a giant and a giantess together. Some producers won’t even make a video of a giant and a giantess in a city. Gary Pranzo (Giantess Zone) has the best city props for buildings and unfortunately there isn’t anyone else who has props of his caliber and he won’t do nude. I’ve gotten quotes from models not associated with the fetish and the asking price was over $800-$1000 and I don’t have that kind of budget to spare. I’ve also been scammed before on customs which brings my confidence down. My wife doesn’t share my interest in the fetish and won’t do any roleplays with me. I feel like if I want to bring my fantasy of watching a naked giant couple destroy a city to life, I have to do it myself and unfortunately, I don’t have the props, equipment, and since my wife won’t do it with me, models to do it.
So the only way I can express my fantasy is make collages and I know I’m not a good collager and storyteller since I am getting a lot criticism that my collages don’t have stories. It does get to me at times because I feel alone that I have this particular fetish, but unfortunately I can only do what I can and just have to accept it.
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Brutally honest here, I’m pretty sure I’ve been depressed since… ever, even before I realized this was a thing for me, so it’s hard for me to tell, but yeah.
I get the scarcity thing; my searches on things like ehentai are for three things: mini girls (which is the new shrunken woman tag), shrink (which generally covers all varieties of the word) and… giantess, because sometimes there’s giantess with a smaller woman and that’s generally much more common than just SW content, even with the sheer amount of just normal GTS stuff I have to learn to filter through. And if you like giant couples…? Ouch. That’s even less that SW, from what I’ve seen.
It gets tiring, to look at the sheer, giant amount of porn that shows up on a daily basis and realize that, somehow, yours is the one that seemingly nobody likes/makes/cares about can be grating, and seeing the comments on some pages that are basically ‘?!?’ from random people doesn’t help either.
Personally, there’s also some guilt on just the whole thematics of it all, which doesn’t help, and the knowledge that nobody in my life would get it, even if they accepted it (and I wonder about the accepting part, even).
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Not to play sads olympics here, but uh… I have to say, I’ve seen way more giant couples material than the niche-r stuff I’m into. And of course I’m just talking art. I think you need to adjust your expectations when it comes to real-person video stuff - it is very expensive, very time-consuming, and if the market isn’t there, then… you as a creator out a lot more than $800-1000 worth of labor and materials.
I built an entire website around the under-served kinks I’m into. I built a Discord community. I make my own smut, in whatever capacity I’m capable of. “Make the porn you want to see in the world” is my motto; haters can go fuck themselves.
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@phantom8
I used to let my kinks get me down. The fear of being found out or worse, never finding someone who will could accept me for who I am just added to everything else that bummed me out. Anymore, I don’t let it bother me. If people find out, so be it. Maybe that just comes with age, I don’t know. All I do know is that the size community is friendly and open and I don’t need to feel ashamed here. In fact, with everything else there is to feel miserable about in life, the fact that I can come here, or the SWB or deviantart and find amazing art and stories to satisfy this part of my brain is incredible. I realized there’s no reason to get down on myself for something that I a) enjoy and b) can’t control. That’s why we’re here, to escape the mundane with a few like-minded people. Just my two cents, for what they’re worth. -
@phantom8 I know it can be frustrating to see that very few people share your interests, but I want you to know that in the size community you’re accepted and understood.
It’s really hard to find live action content good enough, even for me being a SW enthusiast, the depressing part for me is being so busy I have no time to make art about what I like, because I could do it with the exact level of cruelty and kinkiness I like, so I depend on others to enjoy my fantasy, and expecting great artists like Jitensha or Steve O’ Reno to do more of their cruel art without gore, but there will always seem to be too few of what you like.
It should be nice to have a lover who shares your most intense fetish, as a dominant guy irl I tend to be with submissive women who enjoy pleasuring those fantasies when I open up about them; but it will never be as great as if they shared and completely understood what I feel about SW, and that brings a certain feeling on loneliness…
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@phantom8
I too feel frustrated about the lack of SW content in the wider size community, and even more pissed off when I hear about people dismissing what very little content we have as if EVERYTHING has to be GTS/SM…Still, I’m glad the few stuff we have are very high quality. Shrink Fan, Ilayhu, Jitensha, Mercomix… They all make incredible creations. But with all due respect, it’s kind of a shame we need to pay to access most of the SW-exclusive content whereas GTS/SM has an abundance of free content to choose from.
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@kondo said in Does your size fetish make you depressed?:
But with all due respect, it’s kind of a shame we need to pay to access most of the SW-exclusive content whereas GTS/SM has an abundance of free content to choose from.
This isn’t a cool thing to say.
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Oh I’m really sorry, I didn’t mean to offend any creator… Obviously they should charge people for their hard work. I just wish sites like ehentai would offer more SW content.
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@kondo E-hentai hosts pirated content.
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Yes I am aware. I support the creators if I can find the source of their art, but sometimes I find more obscure translated media that I would otherwise have no access to.
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I think the problem with topics like this is that there is always going to be the implication, however small, of entitlement. It’s never “I wish more people were into the thing I’m into”, but always some kind of “I wish creators would make things for me for free”. Creators make all kinds of free things already, the internet is full of them. That none of it, or enough of it, is your favorite thing isn’t anyone’s problem but yours. Creators don’t owe you their time, skill, money, resources. It’s kind of a slap in the face to creators who make things for free already, like myself (and I even take requests!), because it’s not the thing you want to see.
But that’s what commissions, trades, and financially supporting creators who make things you like are for. The more you actually pay people to make things, the more your interest is going to be noticed and acknowledged.
Griping like this is not a good look, especially when there are creators reading and posting here.
