I think I’ve already answered this over the years in one form or another, but why not, let’s do this again! 😊

How did you discover this fetish?

Depends on what you mean by “fetish”. If you mean “When did you discover this was (also) a sexual thing for you?”, then it was at the onset of puberty for me, so around 12 or 13 years old, when I started having sexual fantasies and started using SW daydreams while masturbating (confusing times w/ all the guilt and shame of post-nut clarity, but with added wtf due to tiny girls thoughts 😵 ). If your question was more “When did you discover this fantasy?”, for me it was basically always there. I can’t remember a time before, it’s just how I was wired.

How did it manifest?

When I was 5 or 6, the first shrinking scenes in the cartoons I watched at the time, I think it was Alice shrinking in an anime? It made me feel excited, overwhelmed (in a good way), but at the same time I instinctively knew that I had to keep quiet about this. So I felt weird when someone else was in the room when a SW scene came up, I was paranoid that my sister or friends knew about this secret, somehow, so I tried to keep a poker face. If I knew beforehand that a shrinking scene was coming up, I would pretend having to go to the bathroom (but still watch it through the half-opened door).

When I was a teenager, around 16 and had my first sexual relations, I discovered that even during sex I needed these thoughts to go all the way. That was almost always the case, I can have sex without sizey thoughts but my kink makes it hard to really enjoy it otherwise. So I just imagined she was shrinking on my dick or things like that. Again, I always felt some shame and guilt after it for not being able to just enjoy reality as-is, as if I didn’t respect my partner somehow.

What’s the appeal to it?

I have two wolves inside. The cozy, wholesome side is mostly about caring for, and protecting a woman hundreds of times smaller than I am. Between 3 to 6 inches, even smaller. I enjoy dreaming about all things she would do at her size, how adorable everything she would do would be, just melting with complete admiration at the tiny cuteness.

The NSFW side is complicated. It can overlap, meaning I’m still caring and protecting her, but the appeal of shrinking her, or having her used as a sex toy or something is just too strong. I love both con and non-con, so she can also be very into it and worship me like a god of old, or be terrified, both I can enjoy. Both these sides co-exist within me, and I wouldn’t want it any other way.

Lynne Reid Banks, RIP