I was tossing up whether to post here or somewhere else, but it makes sense as a creative piece.
I’ve been a bit addicted to Reddit lately, and was inspired by a bunch of different subs (namely Am I The Asshole (AITA), Relationship Advice, Off My Chest, that sort of thing) to write a size related piece/post. I realise that I could also post on any number of size/macro related subs, but I don’t know who frequents them and, frankly, I’m more comfortable posting here on DD.
I imagine this to be a bit interactive (like a Reddit post), but no pressure. Some circumstances inspired in part by @littlest-lily’s Out Of Their Element - lots of, well, elements/themes that I love.
Posted in r/relationships
by u/Oblivious_Fetish
I accidentally learned what “macrophilia” is and that my GF might have it – should I be concerned?
My (M29) girlfriend (f28) and I have been together for 5 years. We always planned on her moving in with me, but it was expediated by the MINUS-19 virus/pandemic as of 2 years ago when she caught the virus. As it turned out, my GF was one of those people who were extremely susceptible to contracting it. Her experience was pretty typical: cold and flu-like symptoms, headaches, fatigue and significant loss in stature. She’s about the size of my thumb. It’s safe to say that she’s got long-MINUS, as she hasn’t regained any height back. As many of you know, there is currently no treatment for it, so I still carry her around - she’s even got her favourite spots now: hand, shoulder, the top of my head, chest pocket.
That’s not really my issue, but I thought I would give some background before getting into the details. It’s a bit long, so bear with me. Otherwise, skip on through.
As you would expect, the first few months were really challenging for the both of us, getting used to her…condition. We’ve both had to learn and adjust to her new limitations, find solutions where possible. Like the place is covered in makeshift ladders, barriers on the edges of anything that poses a fall risk (tables, desks, kitchen counter), gaps in the walls and floors meticulously checked and filled, and there’s not a single cobweb around (her fear of spiders has gotten a hell of a lot more rational than before she shrunk).
But it’s actually been really great for our relationship. We established rules early, mostly around communication. Like if we don’t know where the other is, we both make an effort to announce ourselves before entering a room - she’ll knock on the skirting board, or blow on a surprisingly effective whistle she made. Ideally though, we tell each other our plans as soon as possible when it comes to movement - a big adjustment for the both of us. Or if I did something that’s bothering her, she tells me asap since walking away for some breathing room is a lot harder to achieve now. It’s gotten easier since companies released working products for people with MINUS-19 - having her own phone has been an absolute blessing.
On a personal note, the past 2 years have done wonders for my confidence and self-esteem. I know it sounds bad, like I’m seeing her condition as some ego-booster, but I don’t mean it in a condescending way (and definitely not like in a douchey “she makes my penis look huge huuhuuhuu” way either). It’s like…she’s seen every single part of me, close up and in high definition, unfortunate angles and all, whether she wants to or not: “every hair, freckle, pore, down to the grit that’s under your fingernails” - as she put it. And she still finds me attractive. You know when you open the camera on your phone and it’s still on selfie mode? Yeah, I think it’s seeing me like that most of the time, lol. So if she’s seen me at my ugliest, I guess I don’t look so bad in other people’s eyes either.
I also don’t want to make it seem like I’m taking advantage of her trauma. She is someone who was (and still is) so fiercely independent, but her condition has made her realise how much she has to rely on other people to do things for her and be okay with it. There’s a lot of trust involved of course. I guess, I’m grateful that she’s able to put trust in me enough to be able to pick her up without prior warning, or get her something that’s well out of her arm’s length, and generally making assessments and decisions for the both of us.
On to my issue…
A few months ago, we decided to consolidate our accounts - streaming services mostly, and other subscriptions that don’t need separate accounts. Currently, I pay for one half of the subscription services, she pays for the other half, and it evens out. This means that we both have each other’s Google profiles on our browsers to make logging in easier (we just have to switch profiles depending on what service we want to access).
A couple of weeks ago, I went to check my browser history to find a webpage I forgot to save, and I came across this block of unfamiliar searches and websites. Stuff about “macrophilia” and “shrunken women”. No one else has access to my Google profile, so I figured that it was my GF - that she searched for something and forgot that she was using my profile (which then saved in my search history).
I didn’t mean to pry but my curiosity got the better of me and I clicked on one of the pages: it was a picture gallery filled with naked or near-naked men photoshopped to be…huge. Like Godzilla/kaiju film huge. Some were pretty explicit, like clearly taken from pornographic material. The entire website itself was dedicated to some giant men fetish. I visited another one of the pages, and similar thing but with a mixture of giant women (same thing, Godzilla sized) or women being held in someone’s hand.
I did a bit of a dive to find out more about what “macrophilia” was, and I ended up with more questions that when I started. I’ve ever really engaged with fetishes before, and only really heard of the more well-known ones, but this? I got a bit overwhelmed and had to step away. I haven’t told my GF yet, but she’s starting to suspect that something is up.
So that’s why I’ve come here for advice. Has anyone else come across this before? I’m freaking out a little, because it’s making me question so much: is this recent? Is she still with me because I fit into her fetish? There seems to be a LOT of giant women in macrophilia - does that mean she likes women? I’m not against bi people, but what if she’s full-blown lesbian?
I realise that a lot of my questions can be answered by talking to her, but how do I broach this with her without making her uncomfortable? Like I said, I’m a bit overwhelmed and would appreciate advice on where to start.