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(Another Reddit-style post in the style of a repost, but please feel free to interact regardless! Think of them as “top comments” or “relevant comments”.

Based on a couple of my go-to characters. She’s just started at a new company and has had a bit of a rough start. Will have three follow-up posts/updates.)

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r/BestofOfficeDrama
u/PuddingGremlin_9k

I hate my job, but I don’t know if I’m being too sensitive.

I am NOT the Original Poster. That is: u/Redeyed-Peach123

Originally posted to r/RealOffMyChest

Trigger Warning: depressing at the start, workplace bullying, dangerous workplace

Mood Spoiler: things look up for OP, OP realises something about herself, gets a bit raunchy towards the end but not graphic

Original post - February 10, 2XXX

This is a long one, sorry. Please excuse my English, it’s not my first language.

I (XXf) live in a country inhabited by Bigs and Tinies (closest translations I could find). The two terms were chosen based on the significant size binary that exists in my country: a Big is, well, big to a Tiny; a Tiny is tiny to a Big. Both sides think their respective label is inaccurate, but accept them nonetheless in hopes of building empathy between Bigs and Tinies.

I have been asked before which of us are “human sized”, but I don’t know really know what that means. And I haven’t really had the interest to find out, sorry.

Anyway, I am a Tiny. For a long time, we were considered the lowest of society’s rungs while also being the most vulnerable - physically, socially, etc. You get it. My country has gone through a lot of political change over the past few decades, namely the consolidation of Big and Tiny populations, the recognition of Tiny rights, and greater advocacy for safe and accessible interactions between Tinies and Bigs. Things aren’t perfect, but they’re better from even just a few years ago.

I work at a Big-run and owned company. I applied for a cultural advisory job that opened up a few months ago, apparently part of an initiative to make their company more Tiny friendly - for employees, clients, visitors, etc. It sounded great, really up my alley (I studied anthropology and cross-cultural ethnography) and the pay lets me afford to move to the city and rent on my own. My job is to assess their current systems and structures, and provide advice on how to accommodate Tinies in their offices. As far as I’m aware, I’m currently the only Tiny employee.

When I started, the office building had Tiny lifts to take me to the company’s floor, but the company itself didn’t think about how I would get around the office: it covers two consecutive floors and an additional meeting/conference room a couple floors further up. It’s huge - even for Bigs. I mean, I guess that’s what they got me in for, but I didn’t realise just how under-prepared they were: no stairs, ramps or lifts; no alternative means of traveling longer distances; no dedicated spaces or shelters to prevent any accidental collisions. I just got a “heads up” from my manager to stick to the walls and “watch where I’m going”. I don’t dare venture away from the wall anyway - the floors are just a sea of massive legs and feet that could crush me and not notice.

At the time, I thought “alright, well, it’s my job to assess this!” So I launched into writing my first report as soon as I could and submitted it to my manager. I thought it would be helpful to highlight ones that I think were urgent, but could be easily addressed, e.g. dedicating work and floor space for Tinies, installing visible floor markers and barriers, training and awareness for Bigs, etc.

Since raising issues, the office has been…tense. It’s been 3 months since I submitted and I’m here eating my lunch in a small, shabby demountable that’s been shoved into a dusty corner of the office. It shakes when someone gets too close, but it hasn’t collapsed. They’ve also installed a sign on the roof saying not to touch it - more than once, someone thought it was an old box or something. One time, I was inside and a co-worker picked it up. Their hand was blocking the door so I couldn’t open it. I had to break the window to yell out to them to put it back. They were kind enough to apologise at least. I put plastic wrap over the window and it hasn’t been repaired yet.

It’s not much, but it’s my break room, my office and my only refuge. I have to bring my own thermos with tea. There’s no fridge, so I need to make sure my food doesn’t have to be kept cold, or I bring my own freezer blocks. Most of my co-workers have responded with some envy, that they’d love their own space like I have. I don’t say anything about it anymore, I don’t want to be seen as entitled or a bother. And maybe they have a point. I call it my “corner office”, to try to have a more positive outlook about it.

Aside from my report, I’ve raised things directly with my manager. He used to be really receptive (or seemed to be at least), but lately it’s like he’s avoiding me. I mean, it’s probably easy for him when the person after you can’t physically keep up with you, right? I’ve resorted to emailing him so I’ve got a record of attempted communications. I haven’t been able to attend meetings because they’re so far away and I don’t have team members I can contact for help. It’s just me and my manager and, well…I think you can guess how that’s going.

I’ve met with HR, but they just gave me some pamphlets on employee counselling services and how to manage stress.

It’s been hard and there’s been so little change. It’s making me question why I’m even at my job in the first place. Like am I just some PR stunt? Or part of some box-ticking exercise? I feel like a guinea pig in some humiliating experiment that everyone gets to watch. I can’t even talk about this with my co-workers because it’s hard to make regular enough contact to establish any sort of connection, not to mention that they’ve been stand-offish lately. I’m a naturally shy person and making friends with Bigs is already daunting, but the isolation is getting bad enough that I’d be willing to just try.

Email and work chats exist to make plans I guess… I don’t know, maybe I’m not trying hard enough.

I have Tiny friends and my family to talk to, but it’s not the same. They’re already so proud that I was able to get a job with Bigs, I’d feel bad about ruining that image for them. There are so few Tiny jobs among Bigs, and it’s Big companies who still carry a lot of prestige. I also don’t like to take work back home with me. I try to keep my personal and work lives separate.

My next report is due soon and I’m tempted to make it really scathing. But should I? I really am grateful for even having the opportunity to be where I am, but am I being too sensitive?

@Olo said:

Social-media-themed size content has been one of my favorite trends in recent years, from YouTube comment streams to Instagram collages to dating apps. I’m afraid I don’t have enough (any) exposure to TikTok, so I don’t dare to try to simulate it.

For me, It’s the relatableness crossed with the performative aspect of social media that makes it such an engaging format. Re: dating apps, one of my favourite tropes is the blind date where everything is revealed.

I have another “post” on file that I’d like to share that’s from the perspective of one of my regular tiny characters. There’s possibly another unrelated one if I get to develop it a bit more. But I’ll pace them out a bit so as not to flood the forum.

@foreverlurk said:

(I thoroughly enjoyed your idea and story! Hope you don’t mind my stupid average Reddit troll too much - pretty sure the mods would have permabanned his ass at this point hehe )

Aw thanks! and no, I didn’t mind at all! I really appreciated it. It’s no Reddit post without some pitiable troll weighing in with pointless, muddled response, haha

Just to clarify, you’re looking for idea for kaiju/giant people? If so, are you looking to have a kind of “classic cast”, like you might get from kaiju fighting/destruction games (e.g. War of the Monsters, Gigabash, Godzilla 2014)? Bearing in mind they are mostly beast-like rather than humanoid.

Thank you for your responses! I purposely kept certain details vague so I appreciate all of your interpretations of the narrative and getting into your ‘character posts’ Instead of responding to individual comments, I’ll reply with an update that aims to address your replies as well as imaginary replies (just to help with story-building).

This one’s a happy ending because I love happy endings

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Update to I accidentally learned what “macrophilia” is and that my GF might have it – should I be concerned?
u/Oblivious_Fetish

Thanks for your all your replies. A lot of your responses helped calm me down and re-iterated what I already knew I needed to do. For some of you who seem to think my GF is just some object, I truly hope no one affected by MINUS ever has the misfortune to ever come across you. Seek help. Additionally, for those of you who are clearly MINUS denialists seeking proof of her condition: I’m not going to do that for OBVIOUS reasons, but also because I refuse to pander to your delusions.

On to the update. Again, it’s a long one so bear with me (tldr at the bottom):

I put on my big-boy pants and spoke to my GF. As suggested, I tried to be as gentle as possible (because she’s so small and fragile – heh, bad joke, sorry) and just brought up how I came to find out about her search history (I did apologise btw). Pretty much what I wrote in my original post.

She went quiet and was very clearly nervous, but I didn’t push it too much. She looked like a scared little bird. I’m glad that I’ve gotten used to how cute she is at her size because I would have otherwise caved and told her to just forget it, after seeing those sad little eyes. But I don’t think that would have helped either of us if I just tried to sweep it all under the rug. It took a moment, but she eventually opened up. I’m sharing this with her permission:

Turns out, she’s had this…kink well before she contracted MINUS, that it started as a fascination with giants and tiny people, but it became more of a sexual kink when she got older. In hindsight, a lot of her obvious interests have all pointed to the same general theme. She loves Alice in Wonderland, Gulliver’s Travels (only the first part with the tiny people), kaiju films, and she loves all of the Tinkerbell movies. Honestly, a lot of things made sense in hindsight, like when she would suddenly get really quiet and intensely watch the screen when a giant or a tiny person appeared in a movie or show. Or she would somehow find these niche indie games that, you guessed it, had giants or tiny people in them.

She also referred herself as “the Jack to my beanstalk”, or my “Thumbelina” and calls me her “Man Mountain”. Like, it’s been in front of me the whole time and it just never clicked!

As some of you mentioned, lots of couples really struggled adjusting to such drastic change. I brought up my thoughts and how it made sense how quickly she seemed to adjust to her new size, given her interests. Interestingly, she said that she thought she would be more thrilled to be living a life-long fantasy of hers, but it couldn’t be more different. Related to what I’ve mentioned already, she said that everything was just so enormous and overwhelming – sights, sounds, smells (I got really self-conscious when she said that, but she assured me that I was fine lol). There were so few times that she ever looks down at the ground because she’s too busy craning her neck up at something. We also live in Australia and it’s a common joke to say that everything is trying to kill you – in her case, it’s a much more depressing reality. Summer is no longer her favourite season because it’s also snake season.

She said that she struggled to reconcile her kink with her new reality for a long time, and at one point felt like she was ready to drop her kink entirely. She described it as being like finding out that your favourite celebrity turned out to be a raging N*z1 and that everything that once brought you joy, now made you disappointed, sad and angry. But being much more personal, it was also like you lost something that you couldn’t get back. It was when she searched for content those weeks ago (when she accidentally used my profile), that she realised that she hadn’t lost her interest. I think it helps that she’s in a better place now mentally, and that it’s renewed her fascination with it again. I couldn’t help but feel a bit flattered when she said that, despite feeling the way she did, there was still a little part of her that enjoyed me being as big as I am compared to her, and that she often very fondly recalls our…deeds, much more intensely than pre-MINUS.

She clearly hadn’t spoken to anyone else about this, including her friends because she was too embarrassed. And because of her kinda mental limbo about her kink stuff, she hadn’t tried reaching out to MINUS support groups even though she as aware that there was help available. She said it was such a relief that she was able to finally talk about it, even though she hadn’t planned on bringing it up any time soon.

She’s been really open to answering my questions about macrophilia, microphilia, size stuff, etc. And her responses have all been a relief to hear (I can safely say that she is not, in fact, a lesbian lol). I already knew that she likes tall guys, but she’s assured me that she’s not staying with me because of my height (and more so now that I’m so huge to her). Just a happy coincidence. Many of you were right to say to take things on the internet with a grain of salt; despite a lot of general overlapping themes, I’m learning that the whole kink thing is very deeply personal, because I’m so glad that she doesn’t want me or expect me to do certain things to her – no judgement if some of you guys like doing stuff (consenting adults and all that), but I need to draw the line somewhere.

On the other hand, she’s also asked if we could play a bit more into her kink – she suggested starting slow first like petnames (which she already has, as I mentioned) and banter, before moving on to more physical stuff. The way she described how it made her feel, well…I’d be lying if I said that I wasn’t curious. I’ve also taken on your suggestions and started visiting other MINUS related subs (in fact, we check them out together) and holy shit, people are really creative!

So yeah, I had nothing to worry about, I’ve learned something new about my adorable little girlfriend, and it’s been really enlightening to learn about these new directions for our relationship. I think this will be the only update. Thanks again for your responses and, I’m sure many of you already know this, I highly recommend internal and secret pockets for covert PDAs.

TL;DR my GF and I talked about her macrophilia kink, it was a cathartic experience for us both, and we’re exploring opportunities to integrate it more into our relationship.

I was tossing up whether to post here or somewhere else, but it makes sense as a creative piece.

I’ve been a bit addicted to Reddit lately, and was inspired by a bunch of different subs (namely Am I The Asshole (AITA), Relationship Advice, Off My Chest, that sort of thing) to write a size related piece/post. I realise that I could also post on any number of size/macro related subs, but I don’t know who frequents them and, frankly, I’m more comfortable posting here on DD.

I imagine this to be a bit interactive (like a Reddit post), but no pressure. Some circumstances inspired in part by @littlest-lily’s Out Of Their Element - lots of, well, elements/themes that I love.

Posted in r/relationships
by u/Oblivious_Fetish

I accidentally learned what “macrophilia” is and that my GF might have it – should I be concerned?

My (M29) girlfriend (f28) and I have been together for 5 years. We always planned on her moving in with me, but it was expediated by the MINUS-19 virus/pandemic as of 2 years ago when she caught the virus. As it turned out, my GF was one of those people who were extremely susceptible to contracting it. Her experience was pretty typical: cold and flu-like symptoms, headaches, fatigue and significant loss in stature. She’s about the size of my thumb. It’s safe to say that she’s got long-MINUS, as she hasn’t regained any height back. As many of you know, there is currently no treatment for it, so I still carry her around - she’s even got her favourite spots now: hand, shoulder, the top of my head, chest pocket.

That’s not really my issue, but I thought I would give some background before getting into the details. It’s a bit long, so bear with me. Otherwise, skip on through.

As you would expect, the first few months were really challenging for the both of us, getting used to her…condition. We’ve both had to learn and adjust to her new limitations, find solutions where possible. Like the place is covered in makeshift ladders, barriers on the edges of anything that poses a fall risk (tables, desks, kitchen counter), gaps in the walls and floors meticulously checked and filled, and there’s not a single cobweb around (her fear of spiders has gotten a hell of a lot more rational than before she shrunk).

But it’s actually been really great for our relationship. We established rules early, mostly around communication. Like if we don’t know where the other is, we both make an effort to announce ourselves before entering a room - she’ll knock on the skirting board, or blow on a surprisingly effective whistle she made. Ideally though, we tell each other our plans as soon as possible when it comes to movement - a big adjustment for the both of us. Or if I did something that’s bothering her, she tells me asap since walking away for some breathing room is a lot harder to achieve now. It’s gotten easier since companies released working products for people with MINUS-19 - having her own phone has been an absolute blessing.

On a personal note, the past 2 years have done wonders for my confidence and self-esteem. I know it sounds bad, like I’m seeing her condition as some ego-booster, but I don’t mean it in a condescending way (and definitely not like in a douchey “she makes my penis look huge huuhuuhuu” way either). It’s like…she’s seen every single part of me, close up and in high definition, unfortunate angles and all, whether she wants to or not: “every hair, freckle, pore, down to the grit that’s under your fingernails” - as she put it. And she still finds me attractive. You know when you open the camera on your phone and it’s still on selfie mode? Yeah, I think it’s seeing me like that most of the time, lol. So if she’s seen me at my ugliest, I guess I don’t look so bad in other people’s eyes either.

I also don’t want to make it seem like I’m taking advantage of her trauma. She is someone who was (and still is) so fiercely independent, but her condition has made her realise how much she has to rely on other people to do things for her and be okay with it. There’s a lot of trust involved of course. I guess, I’m grateful that she’s able to put trust in me enough to be able to pick her up without prior warning, or get her something that’s well out of her arm’s length, and generally making assessments and decisions for the both of us.

On to my issue…

A few months ago, we decided to consolidate our accounts - streaming services mostly, and other subscriptions that don’t need separate accounts. Currently, I pay for one half of the subscription services, she pays for the other half, and it evens out. This means that we both have each other’s Google profiles on our browsers to make logging in easier (we just have to switch profiles depending on what service we want to access).

A couple of weeks ago, I went to check my browser history to find a webpage I forgot to save, and I came across this block of unfamiliar searches and websites. Stuff about “macrophilia” and “shrunken women”. No one else has access to my Google profile, so I figured that it was my GF - that she searched for something and forgot that she was using my profile (which then saved in my search history).

I didn’t mean to pry but my curiosity got the better of me and I clicked on one of the pages: it was a picture gallery filled with naked or near-naked men photoshopped to be…huge. Like Godzilla/kaiju film huge. Some were pretty explicit, like clearly taken from pornographic material. The entire website itself was dedicated to some giant men fetish. I visited another one of the pages, and similar thing but with a mixture of giant women (same thing, Godzilla sized) or women being held in someone’s hand.

I did a bit of a dive to find out more about what “macrophilia” was, and I ended up with more questions that when I started. I’ve ever really engaged with fetishes before, and only really heard of the more well-known ones, but this? I got a bit overwhelmed and had to step away. I haven’t told my GF yet, but she’s starting to suspect that something is up.

So that’s why I’ve come here for advice. Has anyone else come across this before? I’m freaking out a little, because it’s making me question so much: is this recent? Is she still with me because I fit into her fetish? There seems to be a LOT of giant women in macrophilia - does that mean she likes women? I’m not against bi people, but what if she’s full-blown lesbian?

I realise that a lot of my questions can be answered by talking to her, but how do I broach this with her without making her uncomfortable? Like I said, I’m a bit overwhelmed and would appreciate advice on where to start.

My heart, my goofy moon witch ️ I romanced her on my Pali run after realising how adorable she was, especially against a big character model. And now she’s even cuuuuuutteeerrrrrrrrr~

@blehb said in Watching Others Watch Size:

it seemed like a lot of people were disappointed the movie strayed away from further world-building.

Haven’t seen the movie either. I think most normies have shown a general, albeit fleeting, fascination for size content and are genuinely interested when there’s world-building or there’s a reason for it to exist - like most fantastical themes; vampires and werewolves being classic ones. I’ve been lucky to have been able to tell a handful of friends and partners, and be met with curiosity and a “oh, that’s cool!” And then we move on to other topics - hence the fleeting part. If there’s nothing to keep them interested, that’s it until it’s brought up again.

I think the sexual part doesn’t tend to come up because people are being polite. Amazon has probably answered some common logistics questions (including The Boys, Gen V and American Gods) at least.

@i-am-insane like these?

@Olo hard plastic I’m afraid. The articulation might make it a bit more tolerable though? It makes me wish I got more into models or sculpting, because I would be customising the shit out of her. She’s a good girl nonetheless.

@Olo I bought this little lady a while back as an art/size reference. I don’t think it says on the page, but it’s a 1:18 scale model, which is perfect for my preferences - could be a bit smaller, but this was one of the few affordable options with more relatively realistic body proportions at that scale.

If I was game enough to ask my partner to offer his hands to model, I would. But for now, my girly woman hands will have to act the part.

My daydreams tend to be about scale (how big my giants going to be), and because that involves a lot of comparison to real things, they are driven by where I’m at in the moment. So, one thing I miss about work since returning to study is driving to and from the field (up to 6 hours some days), which not only gave me space and time to daydream, but a lot of inspiration. I worked in remote areas, desert mostly, and the vastness of the landscape was like a canvas:

I’d picture giants wandering through; curious ones coming up to the road to pick up a car and inspect the inside - cars and caravans were also easy targets for establishing scale. I’ve thought about giant farmers or landowners, miners, rangers, or even contractors/construction workers who help out in big infrastructure projects (phone towers, powerlines, wind turbines, etc. - also used for scale). Alternatively, tiny people who live in the sand dunes, the farmer’s house, or the mining camps - when surrounded by big mostly dudes at these camps, it was very easy to get caught up in different scenarios, especially as places with lots of food, water and shelter in harsh environments (though the camps themselves could also be perilous for tiny wanderers).

When I’m back in the city, you’ll often find me craning my neck up at the buildings; wondering how a giant would compare, height wise; if our streets are wide enough to accommodate a giant walking through, and the consequences for if they’re too narrow. There are more types of vehicles and infrastructure as points of reference too - whether they remain in tact in my daydream depends on my mood/scenario.

@Olo BoomGT does seem to like their meat. I’m not complaining - beef is delicious.

@Olo it’s only been these past few months that I’ve been really appreciating larger size differences. The body as a landscape has me swooning and blushing something mad.

@i-am-insane said:

Hmm. Unless the equivalent is actually huge, bulging muscles or something? Big arms broad shoulders?

Not necessarily. This parallels discussions around superhero bodies and male power fantasies: portrayals of muscular men often don’t aim to appeal to women so much as to other men. But of course, it’s more nuanced than “men like muscles, women don’t”. I think because a lot of social conditioning around sex centres men and male pleasure so heavily, you may be hard pressed to find a direct equivalent to a lot of fantasy tropes (often leading to false equivalencies) without a lot of de-centering first. It’s complicated and I appreciate the effort you’re putting in to understand!

Personally, I love my giants to be broad-shouldered and sculpted like a statue, but it’s not necessary. I’d like for him to be attractive, but the specifics of his looks comes secondary to his personality, actions, intentions and the overall story. It’s a feature, not the main event. As @littlest-lily says,

the kink is around the fact that he’s much, much bigger. And then at that point I care more about what he does than what he looks like.