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@SmolChlo Thank you for sharing your experience. Yes, I think you’re right - if I want to understand myself, I can’t be serious about this and not bring up the fetish. I’ve always thought there was no real explanation to its origins. I’m not so sure anymore. Perhaps I’m just afraid of what I’ll find.

I can’t explain why it amplifies my feelings of solitude and melancholia. Paradoxically, indulging in sizey stories, comics, or videos is also the biggest dopamine (and sexual) rush I can experience. “What nourishes me, destroys me.”

@littlest-lily said in Uneven Results:

@foreverlurk Dammit! So much for a micro size benefit being harder to spot…

My eyes had some training in VR, but honestly I’m like a T-Rex, my detection is based on movement hehe.

I’ll admit those quartz surface are my nemesis when trying to spot speck girls, they blend in the existing ones.

@Olo said in Depression and Size Kink:

and men suffer the most from this lack. To customize the meme, “Men will literally shrink themselves to the size of a mouse and beg women to step on them rather than go to therapy.”

Ain’t that the truth?! I fully admit that I’m guilty of this as well. I think there has been rapid changes to that perception amongst males in the past decade or two, but it took everything (and hitting the wall) for me to seek help and get in therapy. I even admitted to my therapist I almost didn’t show up.

Good news, it seems her account is back although she hasn’t posted anything new yet.

@The-Big-G That’s a very good point - I have no regrets about embracing my kink and engaging with the community more. Ending my eternal lurking truly helped me, regardless of what I feel right now.

Funny you should talk about low heart beart. I sometimes experience a condition called Bigeminy, arrhythmia due to premature ventricular contractions (PVCs), which causes some cheap heart sensors or pulse oxymeters to report roughly half my current heartbeart (ie. 25 instead of 50). Good way to freak out the new nurses!

@blehb That’s the sort of medical condition I could get used to

Size panic is so real… “they know!!!”

@Mrgoblinging7 Thanks, I hope it does work for me too.

I think the nature of the fantasy itself, of wanting to dominate/shrink/reduce really makes it harder to paint ourselves (biggos) in a positive light. I can rarely see myself as anything else than the “bad guy” in my fantasies, or maybe the hypocrite savior at best.

I’m still not sure what I’ll need to feel better (an actual 3" tall lady would def help!), but gaining a better understanding of myself is the first step.

@giantmaneddie Thanks, and sorry to hear you’re also going through tough times. I’m hoping my therapist will prove worthy of my trust, I’d regret skipping over this part of me.

You know… I’ve been married and trust me you can be years in a relationship and still feel alone.

You mention pets, I think my cat is a great help to my mental health. I got her when she was so tiny, she could fit into the palm of my hand. You can say I always loved cute, small things.

@Olo Should have seen my face when I talked to tiny Ranni - the first time she continues pretending to be a doll, the second time she replies:

“Oh? A dogged fellow, aren’t we? Or is it merely thy habit, to talk to dolls?”

Yes, stupid sexy four handed tiny witch, it IS a habit of mine. Of course, I also chose her ending. If a tiny lady asks me to travel the stars for a thousand years with her, how could I possibly refuse?

@skysayl said in Depression and Size Kink:

almost every single pulse ox in my facility is cheaply made and not worth a hollow-punched toonie

Hollow punched toonie, lol I’m stealing that expression.

It was actually in a private clinic (I know, shame on me) and from the look in her eyes she probably thought I was going to flatline right here and there.

I should bring my EKGs next time and explain to her what’s happening lol.

@littlest-lily Soo many good ideas. I might have done every one on the “wholesome” list in one way or another, with the added difficulty of her being unaware of the real reasons behind my sizey gestures, comments, or interests. I can only dream of indulging in the less innocent list one day (Step 1 is to get myself a partner lol)

@Giant-Gripper I have to say I’m incredibly jealous. Such a nice thing for her to do, I don’t know if your partner enjoys the kink too, but regardless it’s so very sweet of her to indulge you like this. She has probably no idea how such a simple, silly thing can work its way into our giant’s brains. I would be so

@SmolChlo said in Sizeplay ideas for couples:

when he hugs me he’ll lift me up and squeeze really tight till my back pops and all the air is out of my lungs. Feels like I’m in his gigantic grasp

When I’m with someone smol (to me, so 5’2 and under) I can’t resist doing that lol. Lift/grab then squeeze, hearing the air leaving her (and the cute protests afterwards). “Stop it, put me down!”, then me proceeding to leave her on top of the fridge. Simple pleasures, yeah.