Posts made by foreverlurk

I hesitate to post this, as I don’t want to wallow in self-pity but I need to get this off my chest. Due to some… life circumstances, I’ve been doing a lot of introspection lately. I was wondering if I’m alone in thinking that sometimes, having this kink can cause a certain natural inclination towards melancholia, or like a deep nostalgic longing for something impossible to be true, and for someone to love in that unreachable reality.

Now don’t get me wrong, there are many things I enjoy about this fetish, and I wouldn’t want to be rid of it. Like it both hurts and comforts me, causes me guilt and happiness, brings me anxiety and peace. It’s just difficult to explain exactly how it makes me feel lonelier than it should be possible. For me, SW has always been such a strong desire, even beyond the sexual aspect. Faced with the impossibility of ever having a tiny lady of my own - as utterly ridiculous as I know this statement to be - it’s bringing me way down. It’s not that I would want all of this to be real all the time, but not sharing that silly dream with anyone I loved made it doubly non-existent. There’s this huge part of me that no-one has ever seen.

In my life I’ve spent so much time in my mind, imagining things that cannot be, and never sharing this secret garden with anyone, even with those very close to me. Again it’s both a blessing and a curse, and to some extent I’d much rather live in my fantasies than in reality. Having a rich inner world and keeping some of my childhood wonder alive did protect me from the heavy cynicism that usually comes with age. I’m just not built to face some rougher aspects of this reality head-on, and withstand years and years of having my dreams crushed.

All this rambling to say I’ve started therapy, and I’m thinking of mentionning my kink to my therapist. I’m still unsure if it’s a good idea. I don’t think my fetish was born from trauma or negative emotions, but the way I’ve lived with this inside me for all those years brought only troubles in my past relationships, and caused me to retreat and flee further into the depths of my mind. Yet, there are people, real people who need me and depend on me in reality, and I don’t feel like I’m here and there enough for them. It’s just been so rough.

“Do you know that place between asleep and awake? That place where you still remember dreaming? That’s where I’ll always love you.”

@blehb Good idea, and maybe also a place to ask for help understanding the app for newbies

There is now an IMDB page up for the series.

The description is

A technological accident serves as a catalyst for Lindy and Les, a married couple, to re-evaluate their relationship’s power dynamics, leading to a dramatic showdown as they vie for control in their marriage.

@Olo Noooo, that’s so sad, way too young to die.

Excuse my Québécois but that was hot en tabarnak.

@miss-lillipants said in Sweet treat (M/f, borrower, gentle, fluff, smut):

Whereas he engulfed her entirely, she must have felt like a blip, barely detectable, her fingertips like feathers, her little lips pecking him with her diminutive kisses.

That sentence, the entire paragraph is pure fucking gold. Such a perfect depiction of those tiny, faint, light touches and sweet kisses I imagine so much - I could almost feel them. The holy trinity of vulnerability, insignificance and yet being the only thing that matters, the center of his world.

Needless to say, I’ll be in my bunk.

Lots of interesting thoughts, Olo. I think mine intersects with Lily’s a lot, in the sense that while violence is not really my thing, I would never judge you based on your fantasies. I sincerely hope that, whenever I express my own personal preferences for the gentler side of things, I don’t come across as judging or looking down upon those that don’t share my tastes.

I was fortunate enough to be older than most here when I first got access to the internet, so I wasn’t that shocked when first exposed to violent SW fiction and pictures. I must admit that hurting or killing in the context of shrinking had never even crossed my mind at that point. It’s part of those little details in size fiction that took me a while to discover, like for instance the prevalence of fear as being the foremost sought after emotion from the tiny/SW’s perspective. I know it’s obvious but what I personally seek with the shrinking lies first and foremost in the newfound vulnerability of the shrunken woman. The fear, as I see it, is a byproduct of that loss of power, but not THE thing I’m explicitly looking for. I’m almost like a blissfully unaware giant that has no clue of the utter terror he’s inflicting on his shrunken victim. Does that make any sense?

It is not unreasonable, therefore, to be concerned about how expressions of fetish desires might be (mis)interpreted by people unfamiliar with the tropes and conventions of certain fetishes.

We had a case very similar to Gilberto Valle here in Quebec with a horror writer for a book he published in 2017. In that story, there was an incest/rape scene involving a minor - someone reported that to police, and he was accused of producing child pornography. He was later found not guilty but not before his entire life had been destroyed.

I don’t know where modern day psychology stands on all this. I’ve seen their takes on “viDeO gAmEs mAkE yOu viOleNt!!” and I’m not sure we’re in the clear. I’m old enough to remember the D&D scare in the 90s, when people thought playing that game made us satanic worshippers or something. I shudder to think what some experts would say if they were exposed to size fiction.

PS: J’aime beaucoup le titre de votre article. Very clever.

@Nyx said in When the world doesn't feel big enough:

That looks like a giant phone

I though so too, haha we’re so hopeless Glad to know I’m not the only one.

@miss-lillipants Nice, I figured it was something like that, but you can’t stop my G/t-rotted brain from seeing sizey stuff 24/7.

What’s a “mobility aid size self check area”? Like, can I just stand there and offer free hand rides to tinies or what?!

Well holy shit… the entire Robotech / Macross saga is coming to Disney+

https://collider.com/macross-disney-plus-streaming-anime-series/

@skysayl Right?! They don’t know the pain of being geo blocked. Maybe we should get someone in the US to stream it for us over Discord or something, and have a watch party!

@miss-lillipants Really liked it too but I’m not a fan of the way the story ends - you can probably guess why - but there are so few SW audio out there, I can’t complain.

A common thing I love about those is the way the SW first presents herself as being able to care for herself, she doesn’t want to be a burden, etc. But when faced with the reality of being so vulnerable they ask for the giant’s protection.

Honestly, a tiny lady saying she feels safe and protected with me… that makes me fucking melt.

@Nyx said in Training Exercise (M/f, Gentle, Giant, Shameless Smut):

Fascinated, Silas said, “God, I’ve had dreams about this.”

Ugh, me too, Silas. Me too.

You know, I’m usually more into shrinking stories but this has soo many elements I like - namely battle mechs, hehe.

In case anyone is interested, here’s a few more SW audio that I enjoyed - maybe I’ll do a playlist with everything I’ve found and share it later.

Safe in Your Hands
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KNwUvRi3vXU

Your Flatmates Little Issue
Part 1 - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1CPMyexJwVg
Part 2 - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f83pr6pD6hM
Part 3 - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oDxmNSdQx5Y

@The-Big-G said in Hug!:

Almost as hairy as I am I think once your past 30 as hair thins on your head it just slowly migrates to the rest of your body

Too real.