@coolguy69 Oh I’m not really too hung up on my physical appearance. It’s more a realistic take on what I have (and have not) to offer.
Growing older well - uh, this is off topic but - of course there’s the physical aspect : you’re not as much in shape in your 40s than in your early 20s. You need more regular visits to the doctor’s office, and medical tests. You feel signs that some parts of your body are raising the white flag.
But that’s not what scares me. I’ve recently lived through the pain of losing a parent to dementia. I would not wish it on even the most foul human being, yet it happened to the kindest, most gentle soul that ever was. She went away slowly, forgetting everything about her life, about the people she loved, and it took years for her suffering to end.
I’m not scared of death, but this is worse. That will not be my fate.