Intellectually, I think I get it, it’s just… well. I’m a white guy in the US who is trying to actively pay attention to things; at this point I’ve spent a significant portion of my life actively questioning my desires, the morality of them, and what women actually like, and so on; I’ve spent a lot of time struggling with the puritain style programing in almost all media I consume.
Like. Shit is stressful these days, and a lot of people want to be taken away from having to be concerned about things. A vacation from their lives… like if they’re kept in a well provided hamster cage.
Power is hot. That is a universal thing. Competency and the like, women in well pressed suits or whatever, all follow from that. The thing is I’ve realized is that there seems to be two kinds of it: ‘I want that power, because that is hot’, or ‘I want to fuck that power, because it’s hot’. Where you fall in that spectrum, and in what situations, comes down to your specific desires, I think ( I think a woman who can take charge and run a corporation or group or what not with an iron fist is pretty hot, but I want to be the one who steps on a city, I don’t want anyone else to. I want actual physical power over others, but I don’t desire control over others as much, and perfectly happy being told what to do, within reason, and especially if it’s a hot women doing it. There’s all sorts of flavors to this.)
Like, hell. A couple of days ago I was talking to someone on discord and after I said I always wanted to be the giant monster, she said she wanted to be with the giant monster. Monster fucking, honestly, is basically a step below wanting to be fucked by a giant in a lot of ways, because it features that same kind of power disparity, that you can dominate someone so completely without any props or advantages needed.
So, I know there are women who like this, in all sorts of ways, but there’s so many messages telling me otherwise I thought it would be nice to get it reinforced by actual women that, yes, they actually do like this shit, you know? Beyond that, awhile ago I posted my story on the SW section of GTS world (before I lost my account there, like, three different times, so I think my name on that site is literally ‘i’ now, which is one of the main reasons I never updated there), but someone commented that it felt weird that the SW did a thing, fucked and dominated the smaller SWs, while in my head that made perfect sense because she was trying to feel, even for a moment, like she was in control, and being able to push them around and toy with them made her feel strong. But like. Does that actually make sense??? The doubt really kicks in sometimes.
Side note, but I’m pretty sure Stockholm syndrome was disproved, because the robbers were relatively normal people, and the police were such assholes the people ‘afflicted’ just didn’t want to help them.
