@kisupure
Huh. I think, on a fundamental level, I’m not really attached to my body as ‘my’ body, if that makes sense. I’ve got a bunch of medical shit happening to me since I was a kid, and it’s easy for me to think of my body as separate from me, and in general not much of it really.
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RE: Sex Objects
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RE: Sex Objects
@kisupure
Pretty much?Like… how do I put this, there’s two kinds of attractiveness, I guess. There’s the sexual kind, where some part of your brain says ‘I want to fuck that’, and then there’s the aesthetic kind, which is when you you admire that something is just… built right.
And when it comes to men, those two concept are always divorced to me. I can think, ‘Yeah, this person is a icon of a man’ or something, and the hormones just won’t go for me; at some fundamental level, just the masculine shape doesn’t work for me. So, yeah, if I woke up tomorrow and my trainwreck of a walking corpse suddenly looked good I’d… like, it sure. I might even want to preen about it a bit, but it’d more like someone bragging about their car rather than how hot they are.
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RE: Sex Objects
@kisupure
shrug
There’s a reason it’s called toxic masculinity, after all. Men aren’t supposed to have ‘feelings’, only pride. Even now, the most common portrayal of a man in any kind of media is a tough guy who doesn’t cry or show weakness.I’ll note that, again on a personal level, I don’t actually enjoy the male body, so porn that actually shows more of a man actually turns me off, because while a woman feeling pleasure makes me feel pleased, a man… really doesn’t for me. At the same time, though, I’ve realized I’m pretty abnormal in my dislike of the masculine form, so it doesn’t disprove your point so much as prove my own weirdness.
And @tiny-ivy : your point about monsters is very valid. I can say from the opposite perspective, I enjoyed pretending I was a dragon capturing a princess as a kid long before I saw an ‘actual’ SW to help make that connection really click. Women weren’t small enough for my tastes, I must have realized on some level, so I made myself larger, instead.
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RE: Peanutjelly Love
I have a fondness for it, I have to admit. The sheer exotic nature of it aside, like a classic green skin alien from old scifi, there’s something about it. They’re small and weak, of course, and you can eat them, but the idea that they’re made to be eaten, that their entire existence was only ever to be nothing more than food…
shudders in excitement
I love it. One of my many fantasies is of just keeping a food girl and eating her, bit by bit, as a long term food source. Take a bite out, and she just gets that much smaller instead of losing an arm or whatever. Maybe she starts out full sized, or maybe she’s even a normal person you turned to food, and then you devour her until you can keep her in an aquarium, with enough water and/or food that she can grow back whatever you eat off her.
Ideally, she even likes it.
Best part? It’s sustainable, too, as well as environmentally friendly!
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RE: Sex Objects
Hmm. Interesting thoughts.
At personal level, let me start with this: I could picture a lot of perspectives of a tiny woman looking at a giant man, but I have no idea what she would find attractive about it, beyond the sheer power of a giant itself, on the merits of that power alone. I can say that X man is handsome or whatever, but I don’t feel it in a way I can work with; it’s like me saying one car is more attractive than another: maybe one is, at some level, aesthetically superior, but just because I can say a sports car looks better than an old junker doesn’t mean I want to fuck the Ferrari. I’ve read enough that I can guess some points of attraction (abs, dick, ass) but it’s not something I could ever put real emotion in or write well. I don’t like to make a fuss about it, but I derive no pleasure from the male form at all, and at a fundamental level I just don’t understand why people find men attractive.
When I started writing however long ago, I did stuff from the SW’s perspective, but it hasn’t escaped my notice that my, by far, most popular story (let’s be honest here; I’m not sure anyone knows the older ones exist. Hell, with the death of sites I doubt most of them actually exist at all at this point) stars a main character featuring a personality trait I observe in myself, if exaggerated wildly and spiraling in drastically unhealthy ways. Part of it is that I’ve improved as a writer, of course, but I write him from a point and perspective I can understand, and then boldly go with it into directions I’d never allow myself, but still anchored by that fundamental urge we both share allowing him to seem more realistic a person; in that case some degree of obsessive focus, a desire to cherise, and a desire to dominate and control.
I can take some second hand pleasure in reading from a female’s perspective and applying her observations to myself, or deriving a picture of how small she is, but my sheer disinterest, I think, limits my ability to write from a ‘typical’ feminine perspective. I can’t look at a man and feel interested, I have no desire to feel overpowered, and while I can find control kinky, I don’t like the idea of one where I have no control. Giving some control up can be fun, but total surrender at the scale an SW would experience is deeply unpleasant to me.
At best I could probably do some interludes, or perhaps a back and forth between two people, but I feel I’d probably fail to make anything of decent quality if I focused fully from a woman’s point of view.
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RE: SW Inspiration - Gentle Fluff
@tiny-ivy
Hmm. Originally, the ‘plan’ was ‘it was just a hand’ but now I have Ideas.Weird ideas, true, but still.
I’m picturing one of those lonely tower-y kind of wizards, all hermit-y like, but he’s a giant, and he’s sending out semi-sentient body parts to learn for him, so he can multi-task learning a bunch of magic at once, but then the Damsel, like, kisses a finger because the hand is kind to her and she’s probably a tad Stockholmed, he goes ‘Wait, what?!’ because he’s still connected and pain is fine but that was unexpected, and drags his hand back, and the woman with it.
With a first impression of, ‘What did you do, hand, and why do I keep wanting to pat it?’
And he doesn’t know how to care for a tiny person, so he calls an old friend for advice, and it’s this big catalyst for opening up again on his end, while the damsel gets to love an actual human-like person, and also a better life than in a cage.
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RE: SW Inspiration - Gentle Fluff
So, throughout my SW history, I’ve had a kind of habit of having the weird ideas. So, in that spirit, I think I’ll mention this idea I had recently:
You know how a lot of pics on this fetish revolve around handhelds? Take that to its logical conclusion: a giant hand. Just a giant hand. Picture Thing from Addams Family, but giant sized, and maybe mix in some magic for some quality of life/logistics stuff.
In a some fantasy setting, a poor damisal (newbie adventurer, recently de-kingdomed princess, what have you) is wandering around, lost and frightening, in a wasteland, and is attacked! By some savage beast of some sort.
She faints… and wakes up in a dark but well furnished cave, rescued by our hero.
The idea kind of revolves around the contrasting perspectives of the giant hand monster, who is delighted to have a guest in their cave, and is pulling out all the stops to make it comfortable; ‘Oh, there’s this old chair from years ago! Let me get that for you!’ Let me prepare this monster so you can eat it!’
…Contrasted against The Fair Damsel, who sees this giant hand crawling on the walls and other creepy shit, but is trapped with it because it lives in a hellhole and she couldn’t survive leaving. In fact, through in a escape attempt or two where she gets her life saved, even, in that classic SW fashion, to help realize her ‘captor’ isn’t so bad.
Anyways, they’d learn to understand each other and bond, as two lonely people do when stuck together. Maybe Fair Damsel contributes her skills in having human sized hands, along with actual skills, to do something for the hand. Clothes? Working with some normal sized tool or artifact? Beyond that… when you think about it, there’s actually of surprisingly intimate things that could happen with only a hand involved, if I wanted to go that direction, and I don’t even mean in a sex kind of way.
Anyways, was curious to see if anyone else was amused by this concept while I mull it over.
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RE: SW Inspiration - Gentle Fluff
Ah, this is one I’m hoping to write at some point: a wandering giant, traveling by a local kingdom on his way to fight a dragon (as is right and proper!) is shanghaied by the clever princess and her staff and is promptly crowned as the king.
Local Giant has absolutely no interest in being king, or living with normal people, or anything, but he’s the kind of person who used his social skills as a dump stat, so the resident princess keeps leading him around by the nose whenever he tries to leave. Meanwhile, she’s busy telling all their enemies about their ‘new GIANT king, he’s so BIG and STRONG, oh, and did you hear about how he spends his time HUNTING DRAGONS before he decided to settle down?’ to scare them off because everyone before he was corrupted and there’s barely anyone in the castle anymore.
I’m picturing this kind of Benny Hill scene of the giant, big and rough with dragon skin clothes, trying to leave, only to fail horribly in his complete inability to be sneaky, what with being fifty feet tall, and be dragged into judging the princess’s outfits as she tries to seduce him, and it’s obvious to everyone he could just walk off but just… doesn’t.
I’m honestly kind of super amused by this idea, but I’m just kinda sucky with the details, and how the logistics would work. For whatever reason… sigh, I always get hung up on the logistics…
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RE: Buy One Get Two Free
“You may come to realize, in time, that as a pet, a lot of your life will remain the same: I will keep you fed, housed, and well cared for. We’ll spend time together. The main difference, you’ll find, is… a certain restriction on your freedoms that you didn’t have before, things I allowed you that you’ll no longer have…”
I trailed off, before reaching under Miranda’s chin with a finger, forcing her out of her slump to maintain eye contact with me.
“That is, if you’re a pet in good standing. If I find your attitude disrespectful, though, I’ll be forced to take action. There are lines a human can cross that pet are not allowed, after all.”
I sighed. “Of course, this is hard because it’s still you Miranda. There is only so much I’m willing to do to you compared to others, and that could make disciplining you… difficult.”
For a moment, hope flared into her eyes. Then I continued.
“Do you know what one of your biggest mistakes is, Miranda?” I asked. “About the situation we’re in?”
I paused, then clarified. “Beyond the obvious, of course.”
I watched the hope began to flicker and fade, but she didn’t respond. After a moment passed, I continued. “The fuss you made over Amber and Mia. The worry. The concern.”
I gazed deep into her eyes, watching the hope be snuffed out, the bleak despair being overtaken by a fresher, rawer fear.
“Yeeess.” I hissed gleefully, lifting my finger and forcing her to her feet. “If you doubted your ability to manage me, you never should have mentioned them, never should have brought them here. I know the Kennel was unpleasant, but I think you’ve realized by now that I can be worse if I feel the need. You thought I would protect them, but in reality? All you’ve done was give me a weakness to exploit, painted a target on their backs.”
At last, Miranda found her voice. “No… Ian, no please! They’re innocent! They didn’t do anything to you, they’ve tried to please you, Ian pleas-”
“You’re right.” I interrupted. She stared blankly at my response. “What? You are. They’ve bent over backwards to try and comply with my demands, and I’ll admit I’m happy with their attitudes. They’re attractive, willing little toys who would do just about anything for a cookie; what’s not to like? The thing is, Miranda, is that doesn’t matter. They could actually worship me as a god, with prayers and rituals, and they’d still be just as disposable to me as they are now. I may have grown attached to them, and I may regret the act, but you’ve helped me realize that, in one short car trip, I could easily go find two new toys to replace them, or more, even. There’s always going to be more Mins, after all. Ones just as desperate to please, ones so pathetically afraid and hungry that they’d willingly crawl into my mouth just for a chance to eat whatever leftovers remained…”
I stopped and considered what I just said. “Actually, that does sound kind of hot. I think I might want to try that later. But I’m wandering off topic here: while they are good little Mins, that fact only does so much for them. It’s what you think of them that makes their lives have any weight to them. Which, coincidentally, brings me to the next point.”
Reaching out, I scooped up Miranda by her butt, settling her next to my body as I tucked Sydney under my arm. “But first, let’s take this to the table. I think we’ll want the room.”
I had gone and collected a few things before I had returned to the chair, and I could see Miranda take in the new additions to the table top: the box where I had gotten the outfits out of… and a large cage. One just large enough for her to stand in, with its door hanging open invitingly.
Near the top, a water bottle was attached at just the right height for Miranda to be able to drink from its metal tube, while a currently empty tray for food sat on top of a soft bed of litter, the only other feature in an empty environment. To complete the picture, a simple clip hung from the door, one I could manipulate easily, but still requiring more force than even Sydney could muster to open.
“I had a couple of weeks before my house was ready,” I explained to Miranda as I reached my usual chair, “And I decided it would be for the best to prepare for almost any eventuality. I didn’t really think I’d need it, but now I’m happy I thought ahead so much.”
Gently, I deposited Miranda onto the table, where she scrambled to her feet uneasily, before putting Sydney back onto my lap.
“You know, Sydney, you’ve started to grow on me.” I mentioned almost absently as I began to stroke her back again. “Under the circumstance, I’m afraid I’m going to have to confiscate you from Miranda, but you’re turning out to be a great little lap pet all the same.”
There was something unbelievably soothing about petting something so soft and warm, and way she rested perfectly in her new place.
“But now that we’re all here, I think we should turn back to the subject at hand.” I began, turning back to Miranda.
“Amber and Mia. Your friends… or should I say, your ‘friends’? They’re disposable to me, Miranda, but I’m curious: what do they mean to you? I know I call them your friends, but are they? Do you actually like spending time with them? Or they a burden, an obligation? A symbol of your guilt? Or perhaps are they even less than that? Do you just like having little toys of your own, Miranda? Little helpless creatures so desperate for help that they’d even take the person who ruined their lives as a protector? That’s what we’re going to find out, because now we’re going to play a game.”
I smiled a shark’s grin, toothy and filled with anticipation, and she shuddered. “I call it Sacrifice, and for now, Sacrifice is how we’ll clarify your new living situation. Sacrifice, you see, is a game with real life consequences, with penalties that will be very real. And the first thing you need to do to play is simple: strip.”
Miranda’s eyes widened, and she backed away, holding up her arms in a futile defensive moment. “What? Ian, no-”
“Ian, yes.” I interrupted. “But don’t worry, Miranda, it’s completely necessary. How can you understand the cost of losing something when you still have it? But before you can object, like you always do, I need to make something clear.”
Reaching out, I pushed two fingers into her stomach, and she let out a delightful little sound of surprise as she fell onto her butt.
“You, Miranda, are being punished. Normally, I like it when you struggle a bit, fight, complain. Show me that spirit I fell in love with. But right now? Every time you defy me, every time you disobey, every time you refuse? I take something away from you, or the others. I’ve taken a lot of things from them, Miranda, and there’s only so much I take from them until there’s nothing left. So, if I were you, I’d think very carefully about your choices.”
I leaned back in my chair, removing myself from her presence, as she got back up. I wanted whatever to happen to be by done by her own hands.
“So, Miranda. Clothes off.” I tilted my head. “Or do you want to see what happens?”
As it turns out, Miranda did not want to find out what happens.
“Good.” I crooned gently as she reached for the back of her dress. “Good girl, Miranda.”
It wasn’t a strip show, sadly; Miranda took of her clothing in as efficient way as she could, all the while staring at me with soulful, tear filled eyes, silently pleading for what she didn’t dare to ask. As she finally removed the dress, I stared at what she revealed, the tiny intricate underwear, all transparent silk and lace adorning her body, attracting the eye in just right way.
She looked significantly less pleased with my enraptured attention to her outfit than she had been earlier.
“Stop there.” I commanded. “And get those shoes back on.”
Confused, she put the heels back on. I didn’t explain the reasoning, yet. That would be later. Next up…
I laid my hand, face up onto the table, halfway between where me and where she stood. “Bring me the dress, Miranda.”
At that, she started to open her mouth, only to close it in sudden realization. Instead, she reluctantly picked up her outfit from the table and walked towards me on shaky legs, only to stop at my hand.
Miranda looked me said a single, almost sobbing word. “Please.”
It had worked on me before now; again and again and again, I had folded before her desperation. Now I only raised an eyebrow in the air as I asked a simple question.
“Do you think I won’t?”
Miranda broke then, just a bit. She stayed standing, but she sagged in place, her body going limp, tears now falling from her face. I don’t think she even realized she had dropped her dress, or that it had fallen into my hand, until I spoke.
“Good girl, Miranda.” She straightened up at the sound of my voice, in that same way I had seen from the other: at attention, arms behind her back, chest out, head tilted submissively
A beat past, then I saw her move past her unconscious reaction, staring at her now empty hands, and then mine, as she realized what happened.
“You did well.” I continued warmly. “I know you’re having a hard time listening to instruction at the moment, but don’t worry, we’ll get through it together.”
I reached out with my free hand and gently stroked a finger against her cheek; she sighed gently and leaned into my touch, so engrossed by the sensation that she failed to notice the first hand put her dress back into the box. I could have stopped there, but instead, I caressed her hair, a smaller, kinder smile on my face.
No matter what I tried, the bigger gestures I made for her had never gone over well; she had stressed, struggled, and worried every step of the way. It was only moments like these, smaller in scope, with simple physical affection and praise that she truly seemed at peace.
It made me wonder: did she even want to live a life as a person? To face the complexities and hardships of trying to charter her own way in life, against the limitations of being a Min? To try and act an equal against people, beings that physically were so far beyond her to make her seem as nothing and that her mind couldn’t even conceive of being human?
Or did she, somewhere deep inside, want to be owned after all? To live the life of a pet princess, spoiled and adored with a tiny toy crown on her head? Cared for, clothed in finery, fed off her Master’s own plate and carried to and fro, all without worrying about anything more than her own happiness and doing what she was told?
On my lap, I could feel Sydney’s body being lifted up by the power of my erection, the way she adjusted herself around it. It only made me feel even hotter.
“I’m proud of you, Miranda.” I said. “I’m so proud. Are you ready for the next step?”
She frowned as I removed my finger, before tentatively nodding.
“Good. Good, Miranda.” I paused. “Now, get in the cage.”
She jerked. “N-” she began, stopping herself before she could violate my taboo, only to began to beg. “Please. Please Ian, please don’t do this, please!”
I held out my finger again and Miranda rubbed her face against it, almost frantically, hoping it was a sign I’d listen to her and we’d go back to what we were doing before. It was a tempting thought, true, and something I’d love to explore.
But all of this was about proving a point.
I gave her a minute to lavish me with affection before speaking. “Wait any longer, Miranda, and I’ll take that as disobedience.”
She flung herself away from my finger like it burned her, staring at me in betrayal. She stared up at me, and mouthed, ‘please’, one more time, before her nerve broke. Letting out a horrified cry, she turned on her heel and ran into the cage. Once she made it inside, she fell to her knees upon the litter and sobbed into her hands.
“Good girl, Miranda.” I soothed. “Good, good girl.”
Under the sound of my praise, her tears slowed and she looked back to me hopefully. “You did so well, didn’t you? That wasn’t so bad, now was it? Isn’t it nice to listen to me? Isn’t it nice to make me proud?”
I watched her sniffle, and wipe away the rest of the tears before she got back to her feet. Despite the fact she was standing in a literal cage, she smiled at me, happy with her simple treatment and my basic kindness.
It was almost sad to manipulate her so easily.
“Be a good little pet, Miranda, and close the door.” She paled. “Close yourself in the cage, Miranda.”
She shook, for a long, long moment, but then she took a step forward without me having to say anything else. Then another, and another, until she stood in front of the cage’s entrance. She reached out towards the door, only to stop again, hesitation clear on her face. She looked at me, then, then the cage, then at me again.
Then Miranda, without me having to do anything more than speak, closed the door, sealing herself in a cage of her own free well.
Immediately, she grabbed the bars, as if to undo what she had just done, and wept hysterically before she began to scream.
“No. No. NonononononoNONONO!” As I reached out my own hand to pull the cage towards me, her panicked cries gained a new focus.
“Ian! Ian! What did you do to me? What did you do to me?!”
“Me?” I asked, as the cage arrived before me. “Nothing, Miranda. Absolutely nothing.”
Calmly, I grabbed the dangling clasp and locked the door with a smile. “You did this to yourself.”
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RE: SW Inspiration - Gentle Fluff
Something I idly muse over sometimes is someone taking care of a dollhouse for an SW, or maybe even a little town of dollhouses and people inside them. I just like the idea of someone maintaining these little houses, that people live in, that they could pick up.
It’s something, depending on how you want to spin it, that could go all sorts of ways: a lonely wizard, making a sort of fancy bird house for fairies so he can have company. A giant repairing a abandoned home as a hobby, like a ship in a bottle, only to find someone moved in one day. A man making doll houses for charity, but he finds himself as an unexpected landlord to some tinies looking for a new home.
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RE: Buy One Get Two Free
@drek
Thanks! It’s great to be feeling better again, and it’s certainly helping be productive, lol.And would you believe I’m kind of winging this entire thing? I’m glad to hear it’s still working out!
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RE: Buy One Get Two Free
I returned to my chair to find Miranda still where I left her: on her knees on the arm of the chair, eyes red with tears.
“Good girl.” I told her again, more enthusiastically this time. “You did just as I told you! Good job!”
Settling into my char, I placed an elbow in front of Miranda and my head against my fist, allowing me to easily loom over her.
Thinking for a moment, I turned my to observe the other arm of the chair. “Ah, Sydney. You’re still there.”
If Miranda hadn’t left her spot since I had left, I wasn’t sure if Sydney had moved since I had placed her there. Casually, I picked her up and plopped her face down onto my lap. She started a bit at first, but I began to brush my hand against her back, and she stopped squirming after a moment. It was almost adorable to watch her curl up slightly, knees towards her body and her head on her arms, as if she was ready to take a nap then and there.
It felt a bit like she had turned into a cat.
After a minute I turned my head back, still continuing to stroke my new pet’s back.
“Tell me something, Miranda. Do you know why I’m mad?” I asked.
She had been watching my interactions with wide eyes, but as soon as I refocused on her she paled. After a second passed, she shook her head slightly.
I sighed. “Alright. Let me sum things up. You, Miranda, came to me because you were lonely and afraid, and hoped to leverage my affection for you into a better life. It worked.”
I paused for emphasis. “For about three hours, maybe. Then you blew up our little bargain at the first possible opportunity, because apparently actually going through with what you negotiated with was too hard for you. After that, things became… unstable between us. I’ve been thinking about it, and I finally realized why: I don’t think you consider me a person.”
Which, I’ll admit, was ironic considering our situation.
Before she could say anything, I shushed her. “Quiet, Miranda. Right now it’s my turn to talk. Although, that is somewhat related: you don’t talk to me. You appease me. You try and talk me down from something, and you try to bargain with me. Every time that you’ve decided to spend time with me, Miranda, you did it with an objective in mind, a goal to accomplish.”
I stopped and thought about my next words before I spoke. “And in the grand scheme of things, it’s not like I mind that, really; if you want to sell me your time, attention, worry and body for little things? I’m certainly not complaining, though it’s interesting that you value yourself so cheaply. But the thing is, after the pizza incident, we renegotiated your situation here, and in my mind, we did built around the idea of us… let’s say courting each. Not that we’re in a romantic relationship per say, but considering one, feeling each other out for the possibility.”
Miranda stared at me, confused but listening. She jolted at my next sentence. “And then I realized you were horny.”
“It’s not surprising, really,” I continued, ignore-ing the way she sputtered. “If nothing else, the last fifteen minutes or so have proved a point about Min sensitivity, and you haven’t had sex with a man since Jarret left you to die of old age in a government holding cell. Of course you’re horny.”
Miranda all but staggered at that, a look of actual pain crossing her face. Even I thought that was a bit of a low blow, but, hey. I was still mad. I wasn’t above a low blow or two.
“And again, it’s not like I’m against that, I mean fuck, I love the idea that you’re horny. I’d like you to be horny all the time, really. But it wasn’t just that, it was the situation we were in that made things clear to me. If you wanted to have sex then, well, that moment was the perfect time to do it. We both know I would be up for it any time you wanted to, of course, but still. The thing is, you didn’t, because you don’t; even if your body is saying ‘yes’, your mind is saying ‘no’. More than that, though, it was saying '‘panic’: you were afraid when you saw me realizing that you were turned on, and that helped me put it all together.”
For the first time since the conversation, I stopped petting Sydney, and used my free hand to poke Miranda in the chest, forcing her a step back. Then, just for fun of it, I reached down slightly and curved my finger around her cleavage, bouncing her breasts slightly against its tip.
She glared up at me, but I saw the fear in her eyes all the same. Moreover, I saw the slight blush on her cheeks, the way she bit her lip.
“You’re afraid, but it’s not about me hurting you. Even Mia realized you were safe from that before she had even spent a day with me. You’re afraid of abandonment, true, but I’m not going to… lose interest after the first time or anything; we’re clearly in a long haul situation here. So that begs the question: what are you afraid of?”
My wandering finger went lower still, between her legs, before rising so high Miranda was forced to balance on it, her arms braced against my hand, with the tips of her shoes barely touching the chair. The glare hadn’t faded, or the fear, but the blush had only grown in strength and she was panting lightly as I held her there.
“It was obvious really, when I thought about it; hell, you told me yourself. You’re not afraid I’ll stop, you’re afraid I won’t stop, that I won’t let you stop. And you’re afraid of that, Miranda, because you don’t trust me to act like a person. You don’t see me as Ian Hunter, Miranda, the man who stared at you just a little too much. You look at me and you still see the dog. You see a gigantic hellhound that hasn’t realized he’s off the leash yet. You see the shark-eyed god that haunts your nightmares.”
I lifted her higher, just enough that her feet could no longer touch anything, kicking back and forth in the air helplessly as Miranda stared up at me, her face completely red, and the anger all but vanished from her expression. Meanwhile, ever so slowly, the tip of my finger grew wet.
“You don’t see me as a person, you see me as a monster.” I stated my accusation calmly, but at this point Miranda was fidgeting so much she probably couldn’t have replied if she wanted to. It was fun, playing with her, but we couldn’t really have a conversation like this.
Regretfully, I lowered her back onto the chair: for a brief instant, she tried to stand, then her legs gave out from under her and she fell on her butt.
“That leads us to now. I’ll admit, Miranda, at first I was angry just out of the sheer frustration of it. Then I was angry that I realized you still didn’t trust me, and it became even worse when I realized you may be right, that I probably wouldn’t stop.” I shrugged. “I mean, why would I?”
I paused to gauge how much she was paying attention to me, and judging by the way her hands were reaching under her dress, it wasn’t nearly as much as I would have liked.
That changed when I slammed my fist down in front of her, and the sound of it was loud enough startled Sydney into sudden wakefulness. Miranda scrambled back from my hand so hard she nearly fell off the chair before she caught herself.
“But I’m livid, Miranda, because I realized I couldn’t have what I wanted. You may not know this, but I’m very greedy, and I find it very upsetting when something is denied to me.”
At last, I lowered my head from my hand, lowered it so far that I had to turn it so one of my eyes could focus in on her.
“You are mine, Miranda, do you understand me?” The words came out like a snarl, my voice echoing the frustrated anger that filled me. “Mine. I own you, Miranda, all of you. Every single inch of your body, every strand of your hair, every tear that falls from your eyes, every cry, every scream; all of them are mine, Miranda, mine by the right of law, by your own hand, and by dint of the fact you can’t stop me from doing whatever I want to you. All of it! All of it is mine to adore, mine to protect, mine to do with whatever I please! But there’s more in you, Miranda, than just the things I can hold in my hand. There’s more that I want and I can’t get it!”
By the time I finished, Miranda had begun to hyperventilate, utterly still in a way that spoke of her body locking up in sheer terror. I found myself staring at her, at her fear, and licking my lips at the sight of it. I remembered again how confident she was when she compared me to the dog, the way I had drooled at the thought.
The way she had laughed.
I forced myself to stop, made myself turn away, and spent a minute or two simply stroking Sydney to calm down. She had woken up completely at this point, watching me with a wary eye, but as I pet her again she began to settle down. Eventually I felt rational enough to continue the talk. Turning, I saw that Miranda didn’t seem to be, but I continued regardless.
She didn’t need to speak, after all. Just listen.
“The thing is, Miranda, I can take your body, I can do whatever I want to it, but I want more: I want you. Your happiness, your love, your affection… everything. And that’s something I can’t simply take. I can’t make you love me, but … I had some hope you could grow to love me, in time.”
I pursed my lips. “So you can understand my frustration when I realized we seemed to be thinking different things, and that, as things stood, that couldn’t happen. You’re not going to fall in love with me like this, Miranda. At the idea of me, maybe, at what I represent, but that’s not the same. I could get close, I suppose, if just broke you and taught whatever was left utter devotion to me, but if I did that you wouldn’t be you anymore, and that’d just be missing the point.”
I sighed. “I wanted you… as a girlfriend, if I had to name it, or maybe my wife, and in that vein I treated you in as someone who could become that, as a human being. As things stand, that’s not going to happen, so I’m going to settle for having you as my pet. If I can’t make you fall in love with me as a person, Miranda, I can at least make you love me as your Master, as the god you worship and fear. Needless to say, your situation is going to have change to reflect that fact.”
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RE: Buy One Get Two Free
As the last of the rage faded and my heartbeat dropped down to normal, I felt a peculiar sense of peace fall upon me. Post Rage Clarity, maybe. Regardless of its origins, I took advantage of my new-found calm to set Sydney on the right arm rest, before dismissing her to turn to Miranda.
She was there, still, though she looked like she wanted to be anywhere else from the look of overwhelming horror on her face as she started at me. Probably, she was too afraid of what would happen if she ran. Miranda had climbed off my leg at some point, and was crouched down at the farthest corner of the arm rest from me she could get: realistically, that was less than a foot of distance, and still well within my grabbing range, but the thought behind it was clear. She also had managed to tear a hole in her stockings, and that marvelous dress was wrinkled now.
“Miranda.” I said finally. “Come here.”
She hesitated, only to flinch as my voice lashed out. “Now.”
At that, she straightened up, and began to walk towards me, face blank, body trembling, and her arms held around… ah.
Once Miranda drew near enough, I flipped my hand over and held in the air, waist level to her. I waited a second, but she only stared at my hand warily.
“Miranda. It’s time to put your toys away.”
It wasn’t a statement, and it wasn’t an order: it was a command, one that left her no choice but to comply. Unconsciously she reacted to the authority I had put in my voice, body going ramrod straight, before the actual orders I had told her sunk in. That broke her already fraying facade, and she looked at me in shock.
“Ian, I-” She began, but I cut her off before she could continue.
“Either give them up, or it gets worse.” I said implacably, and she bowed before the determination in my words.
Full-out shaking now, Miranda slowly placed her friends into my grasp. I took a moment to consider the scene: Miranda, bent and broken, clothes a mess and eyes bright with tears, and her friends, two tiny and insignificant figures, sat huddled in the palm of my hand.
It felt good, and I savoured that feeling before I continued.
The outstretched hand then became a fist, fingers folding over their victims and trapping them in place. She let out a half hearted cry at that, a “please” that trailed off before she could finish the word, and an outstretched arm that dropped before she could even touch me.
Moments later, she dropped to her knees, while In the darkness of my hand neither of the lesser Mins dared to move.
I let the silence sit briefly before I spoke again. “Good girl.”
Unlike the last time I had said it, Miranda didn’t fight the words, only slumping slightly in shame, even as her cheeks grew pink. I studied the expression briefly before I continued.
“Stay.” And before she could respond, I rose from my chair and walked away, leaving her stranded on the chair.
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Fundamentally, a Min House was nothing more than a doll house taken to it’s logical extremes, in a world where people grew small enough to fit in them: electricity, water, cold storage and functional furniture, everything a Min could need, all presented with the comforting illusion of normality to help shield them from the cold realities of their new lives. At first glance, it resembled nothing more than a normal house, but the more you examined it, the more the abnormalities began to show a far different picture.
There were no doors, inside the house or out, only the rectangular openings where a door would hang. The wall in front protruded several inches over the single entrance inside, and from the middle of the squared off roof rose a handle. The most obvious, and ominous, difference were the three windows: they were massive, compared to the rest of the building, and almost completely replaced the three walls they part of, leaving only the front wall solid.
In truth, the Min House was more like a furnished aquarium than an actual house, and it reflected a simple truth that the Mins probably tried not to think about, even as those lucky enough to live in one were reminded daily.
At the end of the day, Min Houses, like doll houses, were nothing more than toys made for their owners, no matter much they pandered to the toys that lived, or were trapped, inside them. I unlocked mine easily and swung open the outer section on its well concealed hinge, leaving the rest of the house and the base it was built on open for giant hands to easily access.
“Here’s the deal,” I began. “Miranda’s in trouble, and you’re all paying for it. Because of that, I’m confiscating some of the things I’ve been lending you.”
The Min House stood two ‘stories’ high, and was fully furnished with rugs, carpets, chairs and couches. In all honesty, it was probably more luxurious than my house was.
That changed when I began to remove the contents, piece by piece. First the rosewood dining table, with engravings so fine I could barely see them, was set to the side, before I took the rug that had sat under it and place it on top of it. Then the leather (or pleather?) couch was sat next to the table, followed by the plush chair…
By the time I finished, the pile of furniture rose higher than Amber, and both of the Mins were looking inside their barren home with pained expressions. Finally I grabbed the first bed, and held it for a minute before putting it front of my prisoners.
“Here.” They looked at me cautiously, and I elaborated. “Take everything off; sheets, blankets, pillows, the whole lot.”
After they stripping the first bed, I placed the other nine next to it, watching without comment as they reduced each one to nothing more than mattress and frame. Once they finished, I placed the pile of bedding back into the house.
“Good. Next, take care of yourselves.”
There was a moment of stillness, before Mia awkwardly raised her hand. “Do you want a show or…?”
I considered it. Tempting, tempting, but I had things to do. “Not right now, no. Maybe later. Just take the clothes off.”
I watched them as they peeled off their close fitting outfits in a quick, business like fashion. Even without any dramatics, I found myself licking at my lips at the sight of it, and I stepped in as they began to take off their bras.
“Stop.” They froze at my words, staring at me in confused fear before I continued. “Leave those on.”
It was an impulsive comment, but not one I regretted: they looked fantastic in their underwear, and the idea of the two women in their little cage-house, wearing nothing but their underwear at my whim, was an idea I quickly grew fond of.
In fact…
“Put the boots back on.”
High heels were the best heels.
Confiscating their discarded clothes, I dropped them on top of the furniture stack, before turning back to the Mins.
“You two are going to be locked inside until further notice, pending me reaching a new understand with Miranda. I’ll check in on you every once and awhile, and while I wouldn’t mind a show when I do, this really has nothing to do with you. If it goes on long enough, I’ll think about taking you two out to play a bit, maybe with some food, but you won’t see her until we make up. Understood?”
They both curtsied. “Yes Master”, they said in unison. “Thank you, Master.”
I nodded. “Good. Now get inside.”
Obidently, they filled back into their home, making sure to stand far away from the edges as I put the house back together. Once I finished sealing up the Min House, I pressed a button below the handle and watched the front wall fall down, revealing a final window as the ‘door’ disappeared.
I observed for a minute, watching the two of them walking around while trying to ignore my face looming above their windows, before I nodded in satisfaction.
Good. Now for Miranda.
Alright, I’ll admit that Miranda was supposed to be dealt with here, but that little world building session kind of dragged on and this felt like a good place to stop. Next time, I promise.
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RE: Buy One Get Two Free
Before Sydney could speak, I pressed her onto her back.
“But that,” I said over her startled yelp, “Is a conversation for another time. This isn’t about you and Miranda, not now anyways.”
I smiled as I grabbed one of her legs. “This is about me.”
For a moment, I toyed with it almost absently, as I had with Miranda not too long ago. But that was then, and this was now.
Deliberately, I moved my grip higher, and brushed against the inside of her thigh.
“You know, Sydney, I’ve been wanting to cut loose for awhile now, but I’ve held my patience for all this time.”
Time that could be measured in days or years, depending on how you wanted to look at it. Either way, it was far too long for my tastes.
“But I’m done waiting.” I continued as I stared down into her uncertain expression.
Miranda wanted a show, and I was happy to deliver.
I flicked my finger lightly towards the space between her legs and she yelped again, now with pain mixed with the surprise.
“And I’m ready for some fun.”
Slowly, I pressed the tips of my fingers against her skin and dragged them across her. Up, down, to the sides, I followed a winding path wherever I pleased, tracing the patterns I felt within her: tiny muscles, oh so fragile bones, the borders of her chest as it expanded and contracted with her every rapid breath.
Eventually, I broke the tense silence. “I’m curious, Sydney. You hear all sorts of rumors about Mins, but there’s one in particular I’d like to hear from the source, as it were.”
My wandering hand finally paused, fingers posed at the top and bottom of one of her breasts.
“Tell me, how does it feel when I do this?”
Sharply, the fingers slide to the top, pinching her nipple between them.
She screamed, this time.
“Pain and Mins, apparently, is a hotly debated topic. Some say that it’s… naturally erotic to you, that every Min is a natural sub that wants to be toyed with and tortured.”
I let go as a finger began to circle her tortured nipple.
“Others say it’s a matter of training. That you can just teach a Min to enjoy the pain, if you work at it a litte.”
“I’d like to settle that question, once and for all. So answer me this: was that a good pain, or a bad one?” I asked, before adding with mock solemnity, “And remember, this is for posterity, so be honest.”
“It was a bad pain, Master!” Sydney cried. “A bad pain! P-please don’t do it again!”
I nodded. “Good, good. That’s exactly what I want to hear: nice, clear answers.”
I was only half joking. There were lots of rumors of Mins and their sexuality; and while it was generally agreed that they had a sensitivity that far outmatched that of a human’s, the details from there on were a bit foggy. I had realized early on that only experience would give me some clarity on my unanswered questions, and while I had looked forward to working them out together with Miranda… Sydney would do just as well for this. Besides, with how things were going, it was probably for the best that I worked out the kinks before I got to Miranda.
“You’re being such a good little test subject, aren’t you?” I continued. “What a good toy you are! I think you deserve a reward.”
Shifting focus away from her breasts for the moment, I shifted my hold on Sydney, taking her legs more firmly into my hand as I positioned her so my thumb rested directly on her rear end.
Carefully, I began to knead at one buttock, adding as an aside, “You know, you do have a nice ass.”
Confused and wary, Sydney turned as far as she could in my grip to look up at me, but as I continued my impromptu message she began to lean against my digit instead, letting out a small sigh.
I continued as my thumb moved to the other cheek. “Nice and firm. Even now, I bet you could bounce a quarter off it, though probably not as high as you could before.”
Gradually, my thumbed moved higher, to the small of her back, and Sydney began to almost lay limp in my hand.
While Mins being little torture sluts seemed to be disproved, the fact that they all but melted under a massage was becoming an all but confirmed fact; I had no experience in massage, but Sydney seemed to have already forgotten the abuse I had inflicted on of the most delicate areas on her body just a few minutes ago.
Useful information, to be sure, but it teasing out this information from her body was something I could only call enthralling. You could read all you wanted to about the enhanced sensitivity of the disportionately large nerves in a Min, but that knowledge was nothing compared to the experience of a woman’s complete surrender to a simple touch.
It was a heady feeling, and one that I knew I could easily become addicted too… not that I minded the idea.
Quietly, I moved Sydney down onto my free leg, taking a moment to check on Miranda before I continued. I expected her to be watching me, maybe looking at me with the vicious approval she had just begun to reveal, or perhaps more of the blank non-reaction she showed when I scared her and she didn’t want me to know it.
It was none of those things. She wasn’t even looking at me. Instead, I looked down to find her staring at the raging hard on that had developed as I had toyed with Sydney. And she was blushing.
It didn’t take long for Miranda to realize something was wrong, to look up into my shocked eyes. She paled instantly, and her sudden dread infuriated me, ruining the high I had been riding.
She noticed.
“Ian, I-” she began.
I interrupted her.
“No.” I all but snarled. “No, we’re not doing this right now. We’re not. You-”
I couldn’t finish, instead letting out a long, low hiss of pure frustration. Squeezing my eyes shut so hard that I saw spots, I forced myself to not think about it. I wanted, I wanted her so badly, and she knew that, and she-
“We’re not doing this right now.” I repeated, as much to myself as to Miranda. “We’re just not. I can’t handle that conversation right now. You don’t want me to try and have that conversation right now.”
Or maybe she did. It was an insidious thought, and no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t shake it.
Some distant, almost predatory corner of my mind had catalogued the way everyone on my body had moved when my eyes were closed, and while both of them had shifted in ways that I could only call fearful, neither of them tried to leave. It was, whether they knew it or, absolutely the right move on their parts: I would have chased any runners.
“And thankfully, we don’t have to.” As I spoke, I opened my eyes, focusing my attention on a safer target.
“That’s what Sydney’s for, isn’t she? This is why you wanted her here, wasn’t it? To… handle all the things you can’t.”
That you won’t.
“To be used in your place.”
I turned my attention back to Miranda, and finished venomously, “To be your replacement.”
By the time I finished Miranda looked almost ill with horror and despair, with tiny, diamond-like tears welling in her eyes. It was cruel to prey on her fears like this, to turn her own words against her, but I was feeling cruel.
As a final blow, I proceeded to do the thing Miranda feared most from me: I ignored her, turning away from her to focus on the other woman instead.
At some point, Sydney had decided that it was the perfect time to imitate a deer in the headlights. It was as foolish a decision for her as it always was for the deer, though to be far she had reached a point where in all honesty she had no good options.
I was upset, and was going to take it out on someone, and everyone knew it was going to be on her. There was nothing she could to save herself from me.
When I moved my hand towards her this time, it wasn’t to pick her up, but to pin her in place.
“I’d tell you this is for the sake of our little experiment,” I stated calmly as lifted my free hand in the air. I left it there to let the two of them take it in, to realize what was about to happen. Even Sydney, with hand covering the small of her back, could squirm just enough to look around and take in my looming hand.
From my other side I heard a quiet gasp.
“But I’m not going to bother with excuses. I just want to hurt someone right now, and I’ve decided you’re the one that’s up. You didn’t do anything wrong, you’re just unlucky.” I tensed my arm, only to pause and add, almost sheepishly, “And in all honesty, because it’s going to feel nice. You really do have one spankable ass.”
And then before anyone could react, I let my arm fall. Sydney jerked under my hand, let out a agonized cry that left me baring my teeth in a snarl of delight.
I hit her again. And again. And again. I lost myself to the motion of my violence, to the sounds of pain and the oh so satisfying smack against my palm. Eventually, I stopped, and realized I was panting for breath, and my throat was sore, as if I had been screaming.
Still pressed down against my leg, Sydney lay limp, crying quietly.
I didn’t look for Miranda.
Sydney didn’t react as my hand closed around her before lifting her into the air, and for the moment I chose to ignore her, and focus more on how I had damaged her: not only her butt, but her thighs and lower back were a bright, angry red that almost seemed to throb as I looked at it.
It was bad; worse than I would have liked, but not nearly as bad as I had feared. Nothing seemed broken, or out of place, and I couldn’t see anything breaking her skin, either. There would almost certainly be some nasty bruising, and maybe there was something worse happening inside her, but all things considered Sydney still seemed to be intact.
I had meant to hurt, not maim, and it seemed that even in my frenzy I had kept to that desire. On impulse I brought her to my face, and planted a light kiss on one red cheek, and then the other.
"There there, " I murmered, as soothingly as I could, “It’s all over. You did a great job, Sydney. I’m proud of you.”
Moving her back, I stopped as I noticed something glisten in the light. Carefully, I reached out with a finger and prodded at the liquid that coated the inside of her legs. Sydney’s cries turned into a startled yelp at the contact, and I was surprised to see her legs squeeze shut, trying to keep me pinned in place.
Gently, I extracted my finger from her hold, trying to avoid causing any more damage in the process, and I would have had to been deaf to miss the frustrated whine she made as it escaped.
“Well.” I said finally as I examined the fluid that covered my finger tip. “What do you know? The internet didn’t lie to me.”
One major surgery and numerous other related health crises later, I’ve returned to tell you all this: I lived, bitch. It’s not an exaggeration in the least to say this is the best I’ve felt in a decade.
So, yeah, I’m back. Feels nice.
Anyways, if my forced time off from doing things was good for nothing else, I’ve got a pretty solid picture of where this story’s going in the future; probably at least… six chapters, if not more, that I know what is going to happen, I just need to write it. Which is more complicated than it should be, but is better than having no idea at all, at least.
Let’s all ignore how this diverted from my plans as I wrote it and how that could affect my future planning, OK?All that said… does this chapter track? I know what I want from this, but i’m not sure Ian’s sudden frustration makes sense as is, from a reader’s perspective. It makes sense to me, but let me know if I need to try to expand on that or if it seems good.
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RE: Updates for Daddy's Dollhouse
Seriously, don’t stress over updating the site; for us, just having one is a luxury. Get your stuff sorted in your own time and worry about this later.