@blehb said in I found a crumb of M/f in a manga:
I do wonder about the connection between fear and sexuality in the brain.
Off the top of my head, the ‘starter’ fetish of bondage is basiclly a fear, but dressed up in leather. Most fetishes feel like something a step or two away from being a reasonable fear.
@foreverlurk said in I found a crumb of M/f in a manga:
The desire to protect (or control ) is harder to pinpoint - I always loved taking care of smaller animals, or looking after my younger siblings. Beyond that, I think I felt like I lacked control in my life - so having control over another smaller person could have been projection on my part.
In part, there’s definitely a desire for control on my end; I don’t want to really do anything with it, but I want it. On the other hand, though, those horror movies? I’ve read and watched horror since… probably too young, in all honesty. I’ve always loved the monsters, and they’re always big and scary, all but unstoppable. There’s always a pretty woman nearby. Eating is always on the table.
Being the big is honestly me making myself into that monster for someone else.