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There’s an idea I’ve been thinking with recently: abandonment play. Or maybe flat out abandonment.

A focus that’s not the giant trying to train the SW, but the SW trying to get the giant’s focus at all.

Main example I’m picturing is shrinking a group of cheerleaders and leaving them in a aquarium tank. Just the tank. No food. No water. No furniture. Nothing. Just them and a wide expanse of glass. The thing is, things can be added… if they can attract attention to be given those things. Moreover, everything that’s added disappears at the end of the day.

So, not even to stay comfortable but to survive, they need their captor’s attention, every single day. No matter how little they like it, even if he just plays with them at least they end up with food. Worst yet, the more they do something, the more used to it, and thus less interested, he gets, and the more they have to escalate…

@Olo
Alpha Beta Omega, where people have ‘second sexes’, alphas are basiclly memetic alpha males, omegas are subs that are claimed, and betas are the normal people who are probably keeping society running while everyone else loses their minds to magic sex hormones turning off their brains every five minutes.

It’s based off wildly inaccurate and outdated wolf pack dynamics and on Ao3 is largely an excuse to have a man who is strong and determined go through female style, often really rapey dynamics, while still trying to have them be the same character, somehow.

shrug

I’ve seen rare cases where it’s interesting, but in fanfiction… not so much.

The magic words you’re going to look for are things like ‘size fetish’, ‘size difference’, ‘macro/micro’, and shrinking and so on. Because like most things there’s an overwhelming GTS dominance, using the tags can help get you more specific results.

That said, I’m don’t look at Ao3 for my fetish needs; most of the stuff I find fetish-wise has a mass produced kind of quality to it (not just size stuff, but the ABO stuff I unfortunately run into while looking through authors and what not (fuck, now i"M thinking of ABO as a size story)), so… yeah. AO3 isn’t for sexy time for me (besides that one Among Us fic that just makes me interested despite myself), it’s fanfic central. I’ve found a small amount of size fics, but about half the of interesting ones (too sick to really get into sexual stuff right now, and that damn idea I’ve been wanting to write) are fanfics themselves, and honestly I can’t help but think that’s an unusually large proportion of original fics.

@foreverlurk
I mean, that was more a broad statement, from that point you have to get more specific; for example, how serious is the relationship? Because for obvious reasons you’re probably not going to tell your new girlfriend or whatever your long held secret fetish, for example? Then you get to questions like, has she told you of something like that, is your relationship strong in that kind of way, and so on and so forth.

(Are you even in a relationship? They way you’re phrasing it now makes it sound like you are.)

To be blunt? It’s not a one size fits all kind of situation, is the thing. I’m pretty sure if you checked, there’d be a lot of people on this forum who aren’t totally open about this kind of thing, and… that’s OK? Your relationship is your relationship, not anyone else’s, and it should go at whatever pace you and your partner are comfortable with, not whatever pace is ‘normal’. Normal is honestly kind of a toxic fucking lie, in my opinion, and it messes a lot of people up because it makes so many people go, ‘But I’m not doing it like everyone else!’ when everyone else does it their own personal way, as well.

Don’t try and force it, that’s not going to help. If you’re not ready, it’ll stress you out, mess you up, which would probably get noticed and responded to by your partner (if you don’t end up taking it out on them to some extent, since, you know, people are universally known to be more angry/withdrawn when stressed out, which is great for healthy communication! /s), plus, you may be right in that your relationship isn’t ready. Maybe it’s too early or something. How the fuck would I know if it’s ready or not? I’m not you, I don’t live your life, I’m in no position to tell you when and if that time is, you are.

@foreverlurk
Oh, I know it’s not just sexual, it’s the same for me, but it’s more… the implications of it, of how certain relationships have different expectations.

Like, I have family and friends, and I talk to them a lot, and tell them a lot of things I wouldn’t tell anyone else, but I don’t tell them my fetishes. There’s no… expectation for it, for lack of a better word, no need. I could tell them, I have a small group of friends who I would, if I had to tell someone in RL, we trust each other with things we wouldn’t really tell anyone else, but again, the lack of a significant other means there’s no reason to tell them, for, like, the sake of the relationship or something.

Meanwhile, even if you’re not having sex about it, having a significant other in some form is… intimate. in a healthy relationship, they’re the ones you trust with that kind of thing, and in a lot of cases should trust with them, because how you desire that kind of thing effects how you act and so on. The relationship itself has a sort of expectation, even if it’s unstated, that at some point you will talk about this kind of thing, to be open and honest.

And I think that’s what I’m getting at (while lacking the proper terminology), because I’m asexual/aromantic, there’s no need for me to tell others about this because of them, or for them, if I tell them it’s only because I want to.

Hmm. Coming from this as somewhat asexual end, I don’t have quite the same concerns, since I’m never going to have to, like, explain this to a partner, or all the layers of concern that come with having an unexplainable fetish and a desire to have a partner, but at the same time, it’s awkward having this thing I never ever want to explain, so there’s that.

As someone getting therapy, I’ve got to say just… talking in a judgement free zone like that really helps. I’ve never mentioned this there, but then again, like I said this isn’t a big load for me, compared ot all the other shit happening to me.

Side note: make sure you’re comfortable with your therapist first, though, before you do anything big. I’ve never had any problems, but my sister? First meeting with one, she walks in and the woman starts going on about her weight… which is not only fucked up, is really weird because she’s not fat or anything? It’s like she wanted to pull weight issues out of the ether.

So, yeah. Making sure you have a good bond with them, and trust them not to pull bullshit on you, is important.

@foreverlurk said in What celebrities would you want to see more of in sizekink content?:

. They really do require quasi-religious maintenance, hehe.

…God damn it, stop giving me size story ideas.

So, I’m so out of the loop I know, like, maybe a dozen celebrities? As in, I recognize their names if I were to hear it on the radio going to work? And in all honesty, half of those I could have a conversation with in RL, and as long as they approached it right I could walk away thinking they were an old coworker or someone I went to a class in college with that I forgot or something, but thankfully I managed not to let them know I didn’t remember them.

Beyond that lack of interest though… using celebs like that always kind of gives me the creeps; I’ve never really understood fame, much less the desire to go all, ‘RLF’ or whatever that acronym is. It’s one thing if it’s a random stock picture, but the pictures where the captions make it clear that, ‘this specific celeb, a real person’ was being used is just… makes me wince.

That said, I like fanfiction, though I guess it depends on how it’s being done: written fanfiction, I have standards. I like fanfics as an exploration of the setting, or what ifs, and so on, as much because I like the characters as my mind craving constant stimulation so it doesn’t go mad. I’m not opposed to that as a size thing, but the less sense it makes the less interested I get. As pictures, though? Or short videos, I guess? A size-y smut pic really doesn’t have to make sense for the character, I think, so much as be an attractive person you (-'re supposed to know), who is generally unrealistically attractive, doing something. Different rules, and all that.

Hmm. From what I remember, the (original?) is part of a sequence.

To be fair, the prevalence of male dick pics is, based on my understanding, more about getting a reaction at all, literally any acknowledgement, because we’re generally not viewed as attractive so we’re desperate for that kind of attention, in any form we can get it.

(Says the asexual who went through high school not even having sex on his radar, lol)

To be somewhat more on topic, while I dig a nice pair of high heels on a woman, for me feet are mostly a thing I either ping pong from vaguely acknowledging in general or really liking in size scenarios, as part of said scenario. It’s not that the high heel is hot, per say, so much as watching a tiny woman worship it out of fear or arousal, that symbol of female sexuality which is beyond her in every possible metric, with the cultural context of, ‘feet being dirty’ flavoring it as extra humiliating, hit on my dynamic fetishes just right; one of my longer lived fantasies, based on an pic I found a long time ago, is a tiny maid who polishes their Master’s (or Mistress’s) shoes using her own cum:

She climbs up onto the toe of the shoe (or strap, or what have you) humps it till she cums, then rubs her cum into the shoe, before moving up a little higher to repeat the process again, and again, and again… all while their owner looms over them, largely ignoring the woman crawling all over their foot.

@blehb said in I found a crumb of M/f in a manga:

I do wonder about the connection between fear and sexuality in the brain.

Off the top of my head, the ‘starter’ fetish of bondage is basiclly a fear, but dressed up in leather. Most fetishes feel like something a step or two away from being a reasonable fear.

@foreverlurk said in I found a crumb of M/f in a manga:

The desire to protect (or control ) is harder to pinpoint - I always loved taking care of smaller animals, or looking after my younger siblings. Beyond that, I think I felt like I lacked control in my life - so having control over another smaller person could have been projection on my part.

In part, there’s definitely a desire for control on my end; I don’t want to really do anything with it, but I want it. On the other hand, though, those horror movies? I’ve read and watched horror since… probably too young, in all honesty. I’ve always loved the monsters, and they’re always big and scary, all but unstoppable. There’s always a pretty woman nearby. Eating is always on the table.

Being the big is honestly me making myself into that monster for someone else.

@Olo
Yeah, I saw that and instantly identified with that first person.

@blehb
Ah, me with horror movies then. I like the good ones, of course, but I’ll also watch the bad ones, and even the memetically bad ones. Which often leads to…

I’ll never forget this really dumb horror movie, Basilisk, where the giant snake attacks a token hot woman and just rips her dress off. There’s this moment where she’s standing there, taking in how fucked she is, still reeling from suddenly wearing only a a bra and panties, as it looms over her.

It was before I was really into anything sexually, but that image resonated with me.

https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/111769265
Image didn’t work, but related keychain. I doubt it’s buyable, though, which is a shame.

@littlest-lily

I viscerally hate the idea of being small, I just… ugh. I just despise it entirely, like I want to claw my own skin off.

Honestly, though… I like the idea holding someone in my arms, not just hugging, but holding them up, to easily cradle them on a forearm. I like the idea of being trusted. I like… I like being able to make people happy, so easily. To be able to take care of whatever problems of someone I care of with just… minimal effort on my part, and to know that I am needed, me personally.