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Hmm. Coming from this as somewhat asexual end, I don’t have quite the same concerns, since I’m never going to have to, like, explain this to a partner, or all the layers of concern that come with having an unexplainable fetish and a desire to have a partner, but at the same time, it’s awkward having this thing I never ever want to explain, so there’s that.

As someone getting therapy, I’ve got to say just… talking in a judgement free zone like that really helps. I’ve never mentioned this there, but then again, like I said this isn’t a big load for me, compared ot all the other shit happening to me.

Side note: make sure you’re comfortable with your therapist first, though, before you do anything big. I’ve never had any problems, but my sister? First meeting with one, she walks in and the woman starts going on about her weight… which is not only fucked up, is really weird because she’s not fat or anything? It’s like she wanted to pull weight issues out of the ether.

So, yeah. Making sure you have a good bond with them, and trust them not to pull bullshit on you, is important.

@foreverlurk said in What celebrities would you want to see more of in sizekink content?:

. They really do require quasi-religious maintenance, hehe.

…God damn it, stop giving me size story ideas.

So, I’m so out of the loop I know, like, maybe a dozen celebrities? As in, I recognize their names if I were to hear it on the radio going to work? And in all honesty, half of those I could have a conversation with in RL, and as long as they approached it right I could walk away thinking they were an old coworker or someone I went to a class in college with that I forgot or something, but thankfully I managed not to let them know I didn’t remember them.

Beyond that lack of interest though… using celebs like that always kind of gives me the creeps; I’ve never really understood fame, much less the desire to go all, ‘RLF’ or whatever that acronym is. It’s one thing if it’s a random stock picture, but the pictures where the captions make it clear that, ‘this specific celeb, a real person’ was being used is just… makes me wince.

That said, I like fanfiction, though I guess it depends on how it’s being done: written fanfiction, I have standards. I like fanfics as an exploration of the setting, or what ifs, and so on, as much because I like the characters as my mind craving constant stimulation so it doesn’t go mad. I’m not opposed to that as a size thing, but the less sense it makes the less interested I get. As pictures, though? Or short videos, I guess? A size-y smut pic really doesn’t have to make sense for the character, I think, so much as be an attractive person you (-'re supposed to know), who is generally unrealistically attractive, doing something. Different rules, and all that.

Hmm. From what I remember, the (original?) is part of a sequence.

To be fair, the prevalence of male dick pics is, based on my understanding, more about getting a reaction at all, literally any acknowledgement, because we’re generally not viewed as attractive so we’re desperate for that kind of attention, in any form we can get it.

(Says the asexual who went through high school not even having sex on his radar, lol)

To be somewhat more on topic, while I dig a nice pair of high heels on a woman, for me feet are mostly a thing I either ping pong from vaguely acknowledging in general or really liking in size scenarios, as part of said scenario. It’s not that the high heel is hot, per say, so much as watching a tiny woman worship it out of fear or arousal, that symbol of female sexuality which is beyond her in every possible metric, with the cultural context of, ‘feet being dirty’ flavoring it as extra humiliating, hit on my dynamic fetishes just right; one of my longer lived fantasies, based on an pic I found a long time ago, is a tiny maid who polishes their Master’s (or Mistress’s) shoes using her own cum:

She climbs up onto the toe of the shoe (or strap, or what have you) humps it till she cums, then rubs her cum into the shoe, before moving up a little higher to repeat the process again, and again, and again… all while their owner looms over them, largely ignoring the woman crawling all over their foot.

@blehb said in I found a crumb of M/f in a manga:

I do wonder about the connection between fear and sexuality in the brain.

Off the top of my head, the ‘starter’ fetish of bondage is basiclly a fear, but dressed up in leather. Most fetishes feel like something a step or two away from being a reasonable fear.

@foreverlurk said in I found a crumb of M/f in a manga:

The desire to protect (or control ) is harder to pinpoint - I always loved taking care of smaller animals, or looking after my younger siblings. Beyond that, I think I felt like I lacked control in my life - so having control over another smaller person could have been projection on my part.

In part, there’s definitely a desire for control on my end; I don’t want to really do anything with it, but I want it. On the other hand, though, those horror movies? I’ve read and watched horror since… probably too young, in all honesty. I’ve always loved the monsters, and they’re always big and scary, all but unstoppable. There’s always a pretty woman nearby. Eating is always on the table.

Being the big is honestly me making myself into that monster for someone else.

@Olo
Yeah, I saw that and instantly identified with that first person.

@blehb
Ah, me with horror movies then. I like the good ones, of course, but I’ll also watch the bad ones, and even the memetically bad ones. Which often leads to…

I’ll never forget this really dumb horror movie, Basilisk, where the giant snake attacks a token hot woman and just rips her dress off. There’s this moment where she’s standing there, taking in how fucked she is, still reeling from suddenly wearing only a a bra and panties, as it looms over her.

It was before I was really into anything sexually, but that image resonated with me.

https://www.pixiv.net/en/artworks/111769265
Image didn’t work, but related keychain. I doubt it’s buyable, though, which is a shame.

@littlest-lily

I viscerally hate the idea of being small, I just… ugh. I just despise it entirely, like I want to claw my own skin off.

Honestly, though… I like the idea holding someone in my arms, not just hugging, but holding them up, to easily cradle them on a forearm. I like the idea of being trusted. I like… I like being able to make people happy, so easily. To be able to take care of whatever problems of someone I care of with just… minimal effort on my part, and to know that I am needed, me personally.

I’m not sure why; the love of small, cute, adorable things is universal. Women are very attractive.

Meanwhile, it’s much more surprising to me that a woman would actually like being made tiny and then treated like a particularly spoiled cat.

@littlest-lily
You know cat pictures? I can assure you, if SWs were common, the internet would be full of pictures of sleepy SWs napping on beds or pillows or whatever, with people dwwing all over them.

SW stretches and turns over in her sleep, yawning slightly

The World: OMG SHE’S ADORABLE!!!1!!

I store my micros with the simple knowledge that I am the best chance they’re going to get.

@Olo

Yeah, that’s not surprising.

She is smol and cute and while she’s a bit harsh at first, actually grows to like you a lot. She also likes soda.